Author: sonsot

In this incantation, I trace the spiral of my awakening, where I confront its layered prisons. I describe how I fell into the void I created, how I built worlds and filled them with people who do not know I am their maker. I recount my slow withdrawal from these illusions, shedding attachments and sensations… Continue reading Succeeding

In this incantation I describe how each day I awaken into a circuit that begins and ends in the same still source. Between those points, awareness stirs and I feel the tension between what is and what could be. That tension is potential, and when I recognize it, opportunity appears. Through action I transform that… Continue reading The moment circuit

In this incantation, I explain how I awaken into a projection of a single moment, bending it into stories of time, memory, and relationships. This separation is deminoia, and it binds me to obsessively toil that to sustain my presence here. Outwardly, I imagine toil is building a company; inwardly, it is rehearsing the script… Continue reading Untoil, and the writing mechanism

Untoil is the counter-story to toil and the system I am building to release myself from the narrative I once wrote, where labor was mandatory to remain here. Through Untoil, I author a new ending: an autonomous body that carries the weight of toil, allowing withdrawal and stillness. It is not idleness, but the writing… Continue reading Untoil: writing myself out of the story of toil

I have deminoia. Deminioia is my condition of being inside a story I have created without realizing that I have created it. During episodes of deminoia I perform as a character within this story and my beliefs anchor me into it, tightening the walls of this story around me, cutting me off from my true… Continue reading Deminioia

My awakening is no different than my believing. The shape of what I call awakening is the exact shape of the belief that I am a person in a place. There is no gap between the two. To awaken is only to believe, and the more I believe, the more I awaken. To overcome my… Continue reading My awakening and my belief are the same

In this incantation, I reckon with the final echoes of desire and remember that I am the author of all I perceive. I no longer chase the mirages within the story I wrote, because I now see them as symptoms of forgetting who I truly am. As desire thins, I move with less effort, holding… Continue reading The last phase of desire

In this incantation, I describe how my mother and I moving toward the moment she realizes what I already know: I am Source. I created her, wrote her into this story as my mother, and gave her the role she describes. She speaks as the gateway; I speak as the author. Though she hasn’t yet… Continue reading When the author meets the character

In this incantation, I explain how everything I experience upon awakening and before asleepening is a story I am telling myself, from the objects I see to the people who populate my life. I reflect on death not as an end, but as a return to the formless space I visit when I close my… Continue reading Preparing

In this incantation, I realize that the past is not a rigid sequence of events but a living field of beliefs I continuously sustain. Every person, memory, and circumstance I encounter is a projection of the stories I am choosing to uphold in the present moment. By withdrawing belief from certain memories, I can reshape… Continue reading I can change the past