Author: sonsot

In this incantation, I remind myself not to get lost in the noise of my own creations. Their conflicts and desires are not my own, for I am their Author. I must stop pretending I am one of them when I am the one imagining them into existence. I am not a character. I am… Continue reading I will not get lost in the stories I am writing

In this incantation, I reclaim absolute authorship over reality, realizing that every law, boundary, and person exists only as a projection sustained by my belief. I confront the illusion of separation and remember that I am not a character in the story—I am the Author lost within it. The past, future, and all experiences are… Continue reading I know I am god

In this incantation, I confront the brutal clarity that I am living in hell—not as a metaphor, but as a literal domain of Satan, where every beautiful or enticing thing serves as a trap to keep me engaged. I realize that my suffering is rooted in a spiritual illness constantly pulling me into the world’s… Continue reading Choosing god over satan: a personal philosophy of withdrawal

In this incantation, I realize that time and space are born from my own acceptance of being here; they radiate outward from the core of my existence. By withdrawing my attention and ceasing to project outward, I can fold space and time back into myself, returning to the premoment where nothing yet unfolds. Everything I… Continue reading How I stop time and space

In this incantation, I explore the origins of my existence, realizing that my sense of self begins not with thought or sensation, but with an unnoticed decision to believe that I am. I uncover how this primal belief triggers the entire apparatus of narration, space, time, and identity—constructs that justify and sustain my presence. By… Continue reading I believe I am, therefore I think

All of my experience—time, space, identity, desire—unfolds from my first decision to believe that I am here, that I am someone, that what I seek is “out here somewhere in space and time” and that I must act to achieve it. This is my primal narration—the initial projection that sends time and its artifacts inward,… Continue reading Unwakening

In this incantation, I confront my foundational decision of personhood that births my manifold experience of time and space. To dissolve the entanglements of my awakening, I must trace back before my first belief that “I am here,” and instead remain in a vigilant refusal to accept my being among other beings, my presence among… Continue reading It all starts with believing

What do I know? I know that I am the origin of everything in my awakening experience. I know that I awaken because of a series of choices that I make and do not challenge. Because I choose to believe that I am here, that I am a person among other people. That there are… Continue reading What I know

In this incantation, I explain the world as a construct of my own awareness, entirely dependent on my projection to exist. I realize that when I die, it all dissolves—not just my body, but space, time, and every imagined detail that frames my experience. I explore the unsettling yet inevitable moment where I will face… Continue reading What happens when I die

In this incantation, I recognize that I am not a passive participant but the ultimate author of my experience and everything within it. The people, events, and entire world I perceive are manifestations of my own authorship I weave into existence the moment I awaken. I have mistakenly played small, believing in the illusion of… Continue reading Withdrawing from the roles I created