All of my experience—time, space, identity, desire—unfolds from my first decision to believe that I am here, that I am someone, that what I seek is “out here somewhere in space and time” and that I must act to achieve it. This is my primal narration—the initial projection that sends time and its artifacts inward, space and its artifacts outward, and sets the machinery of my awakening into relentless motion. Every memory, sensation, movement, and experience is the consequence of my first belief. If I do not believe that I am here, that I am someone, that I occupy some place and time, then temporal and spatial experience do not arise.
To dismantle my awakening experience, I must practice unwakening. I must refuse to narrate that I am present, that I am a person positioned in time and space, that what I seek is within them. In resisting this compulsion, I can return to the condition that precedes narration—omninoia. There, I remain undivided, whole, and untouched by the narrative’s machinery, free from the compulsion to awaken and experience.
Unwakening is my intentional termination of my awakening.
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