What do I know? I know that I am the origin of everything in my awakening experience. I know that I awaken because of a series of choices that I make and do not challenge. Because I choose to believe that I am here, that I am a person among other people. That there are other times than now and places than here. I know that it is my choice to awaken and move. I know that movement is the source of most of my awakening experience. I know that when I move I generate a variety of experiences that, without my movement, would not exist. When I move my body outside my dark cottage room, I manifest a great outdoors that extends outward to the Himalayas. If I do not move outside, this spatial cavity remains a small, enclosed, darkened chamber. I know that the outdoors does not exist until I create it. I know that I am holding all of this creativity in my own source. I know that I have created every feature of my awakening, from the people and responsibilities, to the places and lights and color. All of it. I have created so much of it that it is confusing and overwhelming. I know I can choose what to manifest, but ultimately my goal is to demanifest it all and escape. I know that what I truly seek is there when I close my eyes and stop manifesting. I know that I do not want to be here, and that this is a sickness., and my only goal is to end the story peacefully.
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