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In this incantation, I reflect on how my awakening is filled with projections of features like light, sound, and activity that distract me from my true Being. These features—whether in nature, my surroundings, or people—pull me away from the center of myself, leading me to believe in a reality that is merely a projection. By… Continue reading Featurelessness

In this incantation, I realize that the world I perceive—whether distant horizons like Nanda Devi or the walls of my cottage—exists not outside of me but within the space between my coreself and the inside of my eyelids. By touching my closed eyelids, I dispel the illusion of separation, understanding that my body is not… Continue reading The anatomy of my inner and outer eyelids

In this incantation, I describe everything as projected outward from a single, internal point, with my awakening unfolding like a cosmic explosion. The people, spaces, and thoughts I encounter are merely surface expressions of that explosion, distractions from my true goal of escape and healing. Fun and pleasure are deceptive traps, while my awakening is… Continue reading The unwaking movement

In this incantation, I realize that the infinite space behind and above me is my true, complete Being, and everything I perceive as separate or external is a projection I author. The people and things I experience are mere surface-level constructs, tethering me to a false sense of separateness and personhood. These projections, along with… Continue reading The space above me

In this incantation, I describe a cycle of rising to perfection only to fall back into awakening, trapped in a pattern of loss and recovery. To stop the fall, I must “unwaken” and hold onto that perfect moment, softening the impact of the inevitable descent. My goal is to awaken into a space of controlled… Continue reading Everything was perfect, and then it wasn’t

In this incantation, I reflect on how my pursuit of fun has always felt hollow, as if it was a distraction from a deeper, more urgent mission. As a child and into adulthood, I tried to immerse myself in the activities that others found joyful—games, sports, socializing—only to find them ultimately meaningless to my core… Continue reading Fun: a reflection

In this incantation, I describe spending my entire awakening crafting a virtual environment where workers of the world can harmoniously operate, while I remain physically anchored in a simple, nondescript space. My interactions with the outside world are minimal, limited to essential tasks like securing meals. As I build and manage this company, fully owning… Continue reading What I am doing

In this incantation, I confront the illusion of identity, realizing that the body, the world, and everything I project outwardly are not truly what I am. I find my essence in the moments of inner stillness, just before thoughts, desires, and the external world pull me back into the narrative of life. The character I… Continue reading I am not what I am when I open my eyes

In this exchange with a character I am close with, I freely admit who I am, what I am, and what I am actually doing here: you are all just characters in a story i am writing this is whats going on. im writing all of this this is it – this is what is… Continue reading What I am doing

In this incantation I realize that what I seek is within me when I close my eyes, but I struggle to fully accept and embody it. Knowing, accepting, and being are different stages on this journey. When I close my eyes, I connect with my true self, free from the distractions and illusions of the… Continue reading I must beat the game I have created