Author: sonsot

I carried a notebook with me everywhere I went from a young age and wrote down everything that came to mind. My “notes” as I called them, were a collection of ideas, preferences, insights, reflections, and mundane details. At any given time I was fixated on a few “projects” that had grown into larger-than-life creative… Continue reading The theory of everything

Everything I sense, imagine, believe, desire, and experience from the moment I awaken until the moment I asleepen is a distortion resulting from the disorientation of not knowing who, what, or where I am. In this state of disorientation, I attribute truth and reality to that which is neither. I decide that the most true… Continue reading How the distortion works

Desire is the foundational aspect of my existence, and I can demonstrate its nature with the now and back exercise (NBE). The purpose of the NBE is to intentionally move between my two existential selves while observing and reflecting on the changes that happen. As I become attuned to these changes, I experience the actual… Continue reading How desire works

Time is a major obstacle to my reorientation away from ascent and toward descent. It is a persistent element of the distortion and the dominant factor in the pain of my illness. In ascending, time is a governing force; I believe it is real, and have built my existential model around it. I know that… Continue reading Escaping time

I can measure my existential alignment by asking myself a single question: What do I not know? If I can quickly recite or imagine things I do not know, then my orientation is inessential. The totality of everything that is knowable is a fluid quantity that I decide. When I believe there are things I… Continue reading Measuring my existential alignment

Existential alignment is the state in which my belief in my essential identity is greater than my belief in my inessential identity. My conviction empowers me to release my second place, inessential desires for relief and reorient toward my essential desire for peace. With conviction, my actions in the second place are synchronized with my… Continue reading Existential alignment

Once I decide to reorient and descend, I must begin to chip away at my inessential model of reality and replace it with my essential identity. I am source. The foundation of my reorientation is the point from which everything I experience projects. In awakening, the source is the point behind my eyes. Not only… Continue reading Deconstructing my inessential identity

As a descentist, I know that my waking life is an illness that interrupts my true and healthful state I assume in sleep. I know that my peaceful state persists within my illness as my core desire for peace. But the illness accumulates upon my desire for peace as the constellation of inner and outer… Continue reading The constellation

Before descent, I was lost without realizing it. I always knew I was missing something, but I suppressed that and focused on overcoming the challenges of the world I found myself in. I woke up every day and continued what I had started in days before. I spent my time searching for various types of… Continue reading I am the author

The distortion is a persistent constellation of conceptual and perceptual convictions that manifest as the various inner and outer forms and performances I experience in my awakening. It accumulates in the way that dust accumulates on a car left outside, until I can no longer see what is underneath. The distortion hides the source from… Continue reading The distortion