Where I look is where I go. What I want, is what I pursue. Where I spend most of my time and energy, is what I want. I did not own what I desired until I confronted it. To make meaningful change, I must desire that change. …
Author: sonsot
Prayer of descent
I mourn my awakening. I will continue to awaken into the second place until I am who I am. When I forget who I am, I wander deeper into the second place. When I remember who I am, I move closer to the first place. There are three stages of my awakening, and each is… Continue reading Prayer of descent
The mechanics of manifestation
There are always two forces at play in my existence. The primary is the original force, which binds me to my original state that I experience when I sleep and when I concentrate on the point in my head and behind my eyes when I am awake. The secondary is the middle force, which pulls… Continue reading The mechanics of manifestation
My past
I once believed that the truth of my life lie in the past. But my inability to recall my own supposed birth, and many other details of my life, contradict the first principle of descentism: I can directly and experientially know the entire truth. How do I reconcile this? I reconcile this by accepting what… Continue reading My past
The origin constant: I am everywhere
I move around constantly in my outer perceptual environment of physical forms and sensations. And similarly, I constantly move around my inner conceptual environment of thoughts, ideas, and feelings. From moment to moment, these two environments are changing. While my projected outer and inner environments are always changing, they both emanate outward from a center… Continue reading The origin constant: I am everywhere
The original law
There is only one law: the Original Law. The Original Law is that I will return to my origin. My origin is my being, my moment. I am in my origin now, but I am unable to realize and be it. …
My path to descent
My progression toward descent occurred in stages. I want. I had a strong desire for something at the core of my being. I could not articulate what I wanted, but I could explain the many things I believed would give it to me. I grew and refined my dreams, steering away from those things I… Continue reading My path to descent
The linear and circular perspectives
Why do I call them the ‘original’ and ‘middle’ states? My entire experience is divided into two states: a state in which I am awake, and a state in which I am asleep. I call these awakenings and asleepenings, respectively. Or, the middle state and the original state, respectively. If I were to plot these… Continue reading The linear and circular perspectives
What I know
July 21, 2021 Note: I didn’t really complete this WIK, and will continue it at the top of my journal as the evolving summary of descentism. The narrative I learned out here is very different from the narrative that my direct experience reveals. When I listen to my direct experience, I arrive at very different… Continue reading What I know
There is only one truth
I have always sensed there was a truth beneath the surface of my familiar life in the second place that would ease the pain at the center of my being. What I seek is my first and last desire every day, and which I only find in sleep, in the first place: peace. Every desire… Continue reading There is only one truth