Author: sonsot

My existence is a painful state of entanglement in cycles I have created over a lifetime. My only goal is to escape. At the end, when I awaken no more, is peace. This is my descent. My awakenings are a series of nested cycles, from the rhythm of my heartbeat and my breaths, through to… Continue reading My descent

As I progress in my descent there is a need for ritual. Ritual serves to remind me of what I know and what I want. Without it, the persistent water of the awakening can change and wear away the stone of conviction. I divide my awakenings into three parts: The awakening: I mourn my awakening.… Continue reading The mantra of awakening

The descentist framework explains my existence in practical, literal terms. It aims to eliminate abstraction. To that end, descentism is entirely validated by my own direct experience. There comes a point when I can continue down the path I have, not knowing, or I can begin to listen to the instruments I have at my… Continue reading Anatomy of my illness

My existence is a series of painful, unwanted awakenings into this place I call life. What is my awakening? Awakening is a series of nested cycles, starting with the cycle of waking up itself from a state of peace. Upon waking, all my other physical, mental, and emotional cycles manifest until I have revived my… Continue reading My awakening

June 19, 2021 Life is a painful state of believing that I am a being who exists conceptually and perceptually. These environments consist of forms which I bond with. These bonds perpetuate the cycle and the condition will continue until I treat and overcome it. …

My existence is an oscillation between two selves. I awaken into my familiar self of time, a painful condition spent searching for release from itself. And I asleepen into the peaceful self of now I desire to return to. The two states coexist. I experience my familiar self of time as an outer environment of… Continue reading My two selves

June 13, 2021 I oscillate between two selves: I awaken into my self of time, a painful condition within my greater self of now. My familiar self of time is endlessly restless, for it desires release from the prison that is this existence. My self of now is peace and tranquility. My self of now… Continue reading What I know

From a young age, I knew that I had to express something vital and important. To prepare for that, I started carrying a notebook and pencil with me everywhere. I wrote everything that came to mind. When I was 10, I bought a tape recorder with money from my paper route, and when I was… Continue reading Knowing everything about everything

What is life? We are all searching for something. It is this desire that drives everything we think and do, from our primitive physical “needs”, to our long-term aspirations. Our inner and outer life experience is the interplay of these desires, and it is essential to understand them if we want to find what we… Continue reading Life is the pursuit of peace