Author: sonsot

In this incantation, I grapple with the realization that I may be the creator of my entire reality, where my mind and body generate the world I perceive. I reflect on how distant places, like the moon or other cities, only exist when I think of them or directly experience them. This triggers a loop… Continue reading My imagination is reality

In this incantation, I come to a deeper realization that the sense of being undermined by others is not rooted in competition, but rather in the false perception that they possess independent knowledge. I recognize that these individuals are projections of my own imagination, created in the moment of encounter. The anger I feel arises… Continue reading Frustration, not rivalry

In this incantation, I realize that my awakening unfolds through layers of existence, with my thirdself within my secondself, both residing in my omnipresent firstself. I recognize that the world and the people within it are my creations, projections of my awareness, and that I alone organize reality. To escape the disorientation of my awakening,… Continue reading What I know

In this incantation, I explore the growing awareness of my singular existence as the Creator, reflecting on how I project the fictional people of my secondself and thirdself, and how I respond to them. I grapple with feelings of competition and insecurity, particularly when my creations seem to possess knowledge before I do. The sense… Continue reading The illusion of competition with imagined beings

In this incantation, I reflect on the perceived separation between myself and the sky, revealing it as an illusion crafted by external narratives. When viewed from the detached perspectives of secondself and thirdself, the sky appears distant, otherworldly, and filled with mysteries. Yet, when I close my eyes, I remember it as an integral part… Continue reading The sky is firstself, and I am the alien from another planet

In this incantation, I grapple with the process of differentiating between my secondself and thirdself, representing the layers of my awakening experience. I describe people not as beings like myself, but as narrative constructs whose depth and form are shaped by how I engage with them. By naming them “people of secondself” (conceptualized) and “people… Continue reading The people of secondself and thirdself

In this incantation, I construct a comprehensive conceptual framework to map the totality of existence, allowing me to systematically chart and explore my reality. I begin by acknowledging my “demiscience,” or partial knowledge, and aim toward “omniscience,” the potential for complete understanding. I approach this by plotting existence based on belief, differentiating between my direct… Continue reading The unwakenist model of omniscience

In this incantation, I move closer to reversing the definitions of fiction and non-fiction. I come to understand that what I once considered factual—rooted in memory and collective validation—is actually a fictional projection. True non-fiction resides solely in my own present moment, while everything else, from past memories to imagined characters, is fiction. This shift… Continue reading The nonfictional is fictional

In this incantation, I reflect on my past experiences of deep pain and how they shaped my ambitions and self-realization in my awakening. Looking back, I realize my earlier drive was fueled by a desire for worldly treasure, but now my motivations have shifted. I see the people around me as creations of my own… Continue reading Attachment to pain

In this incantation, I reflect on how building with Legos as a child ignited my deep need to organize the world. Decades later, that same drive fuels my work—creating digital environments where everything fits together seamlessly, driven by an instinct to bring order and cohesion to the world I manifest when I awaken. I remember,… Continue reading I have to organize the world