Author: sonsot

In this incantation, I explore desire as the catalyst for my experience of time and selfhood, presenting it as the force that drives my awakening into a world of action and narrative. I differentiate between the Premoment—a state of desire-free stillness preceding conscious awareness—and Unwakening, my conscious or unconscious return to this state. I describe… Continue reading Desire is the engine of time

In this incantation, I explore my awakening as a dynamic field centered in my perception, divided into two realms: the innerself, a space of thoughts and temporal depth, and the outerself, a sensory projection of the external world. My physical body forms a boundary between these realms, distinguishing what I consider myself from what is… Continue reading Composition of my momentary field

In this incantation, I explore the nature of memory and perception, drawing a parallel between the physical and mental horizons that shape my experience. I delve into how older memories feel distant and intangible, while recent ones remain vivid, hovering close to me. These memories are malleable, projections I choose to believe in or dismiss,… Continue reading Awakening depth

In this incantation, I explore the liberation of living purely in the present, unburdened by the weight of the past or the expectations of the future. I describe a dual existence — a tension between the “eyes-closed” self, which represents my true essence, and the “eyes-open” self that projects and then engages with a world… Continue reading Liberation from time

In this incantation, I recognize my awakening as an illness rooted in the illusion of otherness—a state in which I forget that I am the sole creator of my reality. My skepticism, doubt, and belief in forces larger than myself are symptoms of this illness, reinforcing the false notion that I am just a small… Continue reading Triselfist restriction

In this incantation, I explore the complex emotions surrounding my fictional creations, reflecting on the blurred lines between responsibility and illusion. I question why I feel guilt for the suffering of characters that only exist because I created them. Despite understanding their fictional nature, I wrestle with the urge to provide them relief from their… Continue reading The guilt of my creation

In this incantation, I reflect on how imagination shapes my experience, determining what I can easily manifest and what requires greater effort. I liken this process to a sorcerer casting spells, with my imagination and actions intertwined to bring desires into reality. However, I recognize that certain imagined things remain unattainable, highlighting the tension between… Continue reading Manifestational sorcery

In this incantation, I explore the profound realization that everything I am lies within the present moment. I describe the demiself, a state where I falsely believe in an independent reality beyond my perception, and contrast it with the triself, a perspective where I accept that my experience is all-encompassing. The journey toward mastering triself… Continue reading Everything is now

In this incantation, I reflect on my existence as it navigates three interconnected fields: temporal, spatial, and existential. I recognize that my attachments to past, future, places, and relationships confine me to illusions of separation and value projection. To practice unwakenism, I must dismantle these attachments by realizing that everything in my reality is already… Continue reading Practical unwakenism

In this incantation, I reflect on a meditative experience where I felt a profound integration of my body and the surrounding space as one continuous field. My body, the most potent center of sensation and awareness, contrasts with the less intense, outer layers of the surrounding space—an “otherness” I sense but don’t experience as vividly.… Continue reading One continuous but divided field