April 28, 2021
The last WIK was about 6 weeks ago on March 15.
There is only one story: I am trapped in a series of awakenings in the asleepening. My only purpose is to end the awakenings and return to the asleepening. The path emerges as I reorient to the Source Perspective by confronting and dismantling the false desires that anchor me to this cycle of awakenings.
The asleepening is my self of now, or God. But in awakening, a false self — my familiar self of time — separates and causes a detachment that I experience as life. The pain of this separation creates a desire for reunion, but that desire is repeatedly ignored in waking, and misunderstood in living.
In waking, my familiar self unfurls in two primary directions – the outer perceptual environment, and the inner conceptual environment. The conceptual includes an imagined past and future which exert enormous influence over the present that I actually experience. So much so that I believe I am a product of this imagined past and future. But I am not; I am only now. The Source Perspective is only now; the imagined stories are distortion.
The Reorientation is a shift from a conceptual to an experiential existence, trusting my direct first-person over an imagined third-person narrative. There are a series of reconciliations I have to make in order to reorient:
The first reconciliation is the origin. In the third person observer narrative, I imagine a shared reality centered somewhere outside of me, simultaneously experienced by billions of other people. But experientially, the source is a fixed point behind my eyes in my head from which all emanates outward. By pinning the source of existence to something I experience rather than something I imagine, I can see the shape of existence.
The second reconciliation is the shape of existence. In the third-person observer narrative, I conceive a universe full of people and events that extend in time and space beyond my immediate conceptual and perceptual environments. However experientially, the entirety of existence is what I actively conceive and perceive now.
The third reconciliation pulls the first two into a single story comprising a series of awakenings within the asleepening. I am literally born every day, and I die every day. It is one big, self-contained cycle with the origin at a fixed place inside my head. During my asleepening I am only a single point of now, and during my awakening I recede to a fixed point behind the eyes of my self of time.
The fourth reconciliation is the acknowledgement of my only desire for peace. My only desire is for peace, which is accomplished only through reunion. Desire is the consequence of separation; it fuels all movement, which in turn creates all change. It is my attempt at finding something solid in the change to anchor to that creates memories. But there is nothing solid out here. The only thing that is solid is my desire for peace, which I can achieve through Reorientation.
The story I tell myself about this place determines if I am observing, or if I am manifesting. Once I attain the Source Perspective, I begin manifesting.
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