There is something I am missing, and I think it has to do with diving too deeply. I am diving into the water and forgetting that I have done so. I am busy describing all the various features of the experience of being in the water, forgetting that I am not actually in it. That my true body is outside of the water. This is the concept I have been trying to explain for so long.
I am. I am present, in this moment. When I close my eyes, I can stay in this truth and realize that my entire awakening moment is spent diving deep into my secondself and thirdself waters. I am the totality of my moment. Then I awaken, and my totality shifts to a narrow focus on a particular feature of totality. I leave complete awareness and enter partial awareness. Omniself to demiself. Godhood to personhood.
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