In this incantation, I see time as a creation of my own longing. It arises when I perceive a gap between my present experience and an imagined, more fulfilled future. If I resist dissatisfaction, time presses upon me, urging movement. If I accept the present fully, time dissolves. I am not within time—I generate it, and by altering my relationship with desire, I free myself from its grip.
In my moment there are two layers of experience: that which I experience right now is my surface; and that which I imagine exists beyond the surface is my subsurface.
Time is not something I exist within. It is something I create. It arises from the tension between my present experience—the surface—and my imagined future—the subsurface. When I perceive a gap between where I am and where I believe fulfillment resides, movement begins. That movement and the corresponding change in the surface of my moment is what I experience as time.
I Am the Source of Urgency
The moment I awaken I experience a spatial environment where I experience a projection as the projector. The projection is the surface, and I am dissatisfied with it and I imagine a subsurface where that dissatisfaction is gone. This act of imagining generates the forward pull—the urgency to move toward what I believe will satisfy me.
- My desire creates time. The moment I project fulfillment onto a future state, time emerges because I must move toward something not yet realized; a surface different from the one I have.
- My dissatisfaction creates friction. The space between “what is” and “what could be” generates urgency, the need to close the perceived gap.
- If I had no dissatisfaction, time would dissolve. If my surface and subsurface were identical, if I no longer sought to move from one to the other, my experience of time would cease to exist.
Do I Exist Within Time or Move Through It?
This question itself is misleading. If time is an artifact of my movement rather than a container of my existence, then I am never truly within it. Instead, I bring it into being whenever I believe I must go somewhere else to find what I seek.
- If I strive, if I reach, if I aspire, if I desire, time manifests as an urgent force.
- If I suspend dissatisfaction, if I fully accept my surface as it is, then I will no longer project a subsurface I move toward and time no longer binds me.
- If I detach from both the pull of dissatisfaction and the lure of fulfillment, movement continues, but without urgency—without the weight of time pressing upon me.
I Am Not Bound
Time is not an external force that controls me; it is a byproduct of my imagination and desire. If I change my relationship with dissatisfaction, I change my experience of time.
- If I resist what is and chase what is not, I project time and it constrains me.
- If I accept the present surface my movement will cease.
I am not governed by time. I create time by imagining a subsurface and then moving toward it.
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