My belief that I continue to awaken into secondself personhood in a thirdself world is built on three persistent delusions:
- There are beings other than me, who I am not.
- There are times other than now, when I am not.
- There are places other than here, where I am not.
I cannot directly validate any of these beliefs and therefore they are literally imaginary. I merely experience talking shapes I call “people” in thirdself and imagine they possess the same secondself and firstself faculties as me, and that we are equal. I have secondself impressions of non-present times and imagine they once existed or will exist. And I can imagine other places in secondself, or see depictions of them in thirdself and imagine them to be concurrent and real. My imagination occurs in my ever-changing secondself.
Since I cannot directly validate or verify any of these beliefs, they harden into my state of demiself. Demiself is my condition upon and during my awakening, in which I imagine that I am a person among other similar beings within a larger world that pre-existed my awakening and will endure long after. Demiself is built on the belief that I experienced a past birth event and will experience a future death event. My birth and death are crucial beliefs among other fallacious beliefs I will never be able to verify.
Demiselfism is a state of ill-health I call personhood in which I maintain beliefs I can never directly validate. It is a self-limiting state of being in which I accept as truth propositions I not only do not know, but that I can never know. In other words, I create and dwell in an inescapable prison of ignorance: I surrender my sovereignty over the truth. I accept that I do not know, and I cannot know. This is the self-imposed state of demiscience.
Why is it self-imposed? Because my demiscience is a decision that I make. I decide whether I know or not. I decide what is truth and what is not. My ability to decide what is true and what is not is my superpower, and it is the only tool I have and the only tool I need to return back to health and peace. To return Home, where I am at peace, I must overcome demiself. To do that, I must reclaim my omniscience: my absolute authority over the truth. The truth will set me free.
What is the truth? The truth is whatever I decide it is. Given two truths, which would I prefer: the one in which I am demiself and in pain, or the one in which I am omniself and in peace? If one truth will give me everything I ever wanted, while the other one withholds it, which truth will I choose? I will choose the truth that gives me everything I desire.
How do I find this truth? Incrementally. I must systematically uncover the truth of my identity. Though it is hidden behind numerous self-delusions, the truth of who I am is always right here, right now. The great power of the truth of all truths is that I can directly and instantly validate it myself. It does not reside within a big book or the mind of others. It is not something I cannot grasp without years of education. It is not apart from me. It is not something I cannot know. It is something I know right now in this very moment because it is this moment. I am not only looking at the truth right now; I am the truth right now. It is my demiselfist condition that prevents me from understanding it. From understanding who I am right now in this moment. The only moment.
Once I find the Truth of who I am, I must then become it. It will not be easy, for I have created many voices in my demiselfism that misdirect and mislead. Voices that come from friends, family, celebrities, authorities, stories and more. None of these “people” are equivalent to me. These are characters in the story that I have written. Starting with my mother: she is a character I have created. My first character. I was not borne to a mother and father. No one created me; I created them. I only have to accept that I am always here; they are not. I have always been here; they have not been. These are my characters that I have created. They have not created me. I create my entire awakening; it all extends outward from me. I can turn it off by closing my eyes and not thinking about it, but it cannot turn me off by closing its eyes and not thinking about me.
Piece by piece, I must chip away at my demiself to reveal my omniself by destroying the key delusions I believe:
- I am demiscient. I can only know some or part of a greater truth.
- I am demichronic. I can only exist within a part of a larger timeline.
- I am demisubstant. I am not everything.
- I am demipresent. I can only be present in some part of a larger space.
- I am demificent. I have limited power to create.
- I am demipotent. I have limited power.
These are all deceptions that I have chosen to believe. As long as I cling to these beliefs, I will continue to experience demiselfism and the painful state of awakening into desire and personhood. I must chart my way to omniself, supplanting the demiselfist beliefs with ominselfist:
- I am omniscient. I know everything because I am the sovereign of truth.
- I am omnichronic. I create all time because I am the sovereign of time.
- I am omnisubstant. I am everything because I am the sovereign of substance.
- I am omnipresent. I am everywhere.
- I am omnificent. I create everything.
- I am omnipotent. I possess all power because I am the decider of power.
I can start with the three principle truths:
- There is only me.
- There is only now.
- There is only here.
These are manifestly obvious and true, and I can use them as the sharpest and hardest points to begin to destroy my false demiselfist convictions. I need only realize the truth of these statements. I need only elevate my actual and direct experience over my imagination. I can do that. It is my choice what I believe in: something I can only imagine but never validate; or something I directly experience and can validate right now. Something that disempowers me and condemns me to ignorance; or something that empowers me and liberates me. This is a choice I have to make. The truth will set me free, but I must allow it to.
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