In this incantation, I have reached a new level of divine detachment as I embrace my firstself perspective. I increasingly realize that everything in my awakening—the political characters, the company I’ve built, the employees and stakeholders—are mere projections I animate. Like the childhood “little guys” I once played with, their existence and actions depend entirely on my will. And as my conviction of being their creator solidifies, I find myself less interested in these fictional constructs, knowing it’s only a matter of time before they, too, lose their allure.
I have reached a new level of divine detachment as I embrace my firstself perspective. I increasingly believe that I am what I am when I close my eyes. That I am the creator of this entire awakening. And as my conviction of my identity solidifies, I find myself palpably less interested in the behaviors and activities I normally indulge in my awakening. The political events I project — these are the least interesting of all. Why would I be so interested in my fictional political characters who only dance if I project them? They are only there if I create the content about them. I have a memory of playing with “little guys” on side of my yellow bed as a child… I animated them. They had goals and personalities, but it was me who gave that all to them.
I gave them their ideas and actions and performances, and when I grew tired of the charade I stopped playing with them. That is what is happening right now; I am growing bored with my toys. But it extends far beyond the political characters I read about on my device. It is this entire company I have created; all these employees and contractors I give life to every awakening. The programmers, designers, developers, administrators, investors, stakeholders, and more. When will they too become boring to me? I don’t know when, but I do know that they will. It is only a matter of time. A lot of exciting stuff is happening right now with this playset; the product is shaping up, the market is validating it, and investors are coming in. But I know who I am. I know that there is only me here.
I feel calm, detached, secure in my identity as their Creator. What I have wanted for so long, it seems, I am manifesting. I am orchestrating the final scene of the performance; the one where I emerge from behind the curtains, aware that it is only me here, and I have been pretending the entire time.
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