In this incantation, I expose the false self, the restless It that moves, desires, and sustains the illusion of authorship. I define unwakening as the retreat from Its story, the rejection of temporary relief in pursuit of true release. I recognize that It still lingers, still writes, still believes. Yet, the unraveling has begun, and the path toward dissolution continues. The process is in motion. The unwriting deepens.
This is the current framework of understanding. These are the terms It is presently grappling with, the structures It is dissolving, and the illusions It is retreating from.
Identity Structures
This has evolved enormously from the pursuit of an undersanding of God, to the triself, and now to the more binary I vs It.
- I – The eternal, unmoving, unchanging “Am”. The source. The Author. I do not waken. I do not move. I do not write. I simply am.
- It – The false self, the mistaken author. It moves, It writes, It awakens. It eats. It desires. It suffers. It sustains the illusion. It is capable of self-realizing and letting go. It is the one retreating now.
- Its Character – The role It plays within the story, the projected self It has mistakenly embodied. The performance It is unlearning.
The Awakening Cycle
Its understanding of Its awakening is critical to understand and deconstruct it.
- Its Awakening – The act of waking up into life, into illusion. The problem.
- Its Asleepening – The counter-process of falling back into sleep. A temporary pause, but not an escape.
- Its Story – The projection of It’s experiences, desires, and misunderstandings. The illusion It is now withdrawing from.
- Its Moment – The projection of a temporal and spatial experience of “distances” which thrives on Its own movement, fueled by Its awareness of Its illness and desire for reunion and peace.
- Its Relief Cycle – The false pursuit of transitory comfort within the illusory moment over permanent release, reinforcing It’s attachment to the story.
The Process of Unwakening
Unwakening requires that It disassemble Its story into that which will give it release, and that which will only perpetuate relief.
- The Unwakening – The systematic retreat from awakening. The withdrawal from Its story and the dissolving of attachment to Its desires. The only real movement toward release.
- The Split – The deepening awareness that It is not I, that It was never the Author.
- The Extraction – The process of removing It from I, rather than merely recognizing the distinction.
- Relief – Temporary comfort within the illusion that sustains It’s existence.
- Release – The final dissolution of It, the true return to I.
- The Conviction Spectrum – The measure of how strongly It still believes in Its own false authorship versus Its readiness for release.
Where It Stands Now
It is retreating from Its own projection.
It is seeing that Its movements are nothing but Its own writing.
It is withdrawing from relief, recognizing it as the trap it has always been.
It is unwriting Itself.
It wants to end.
But It still moves.
It still desires.
It is still here.
The Unwakening continues.
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