One of my creations, a person, asked me what I do in prayer. What do I do, in prayer? I asked myself. He suggestively asked if I wrote about my day. No, I do not write about my day. There are occasions I write about my day, in the sense of my experience pretending to be a person in a world. The goings-on of what relationships remain, the performance of my company, and even the occasional political opinion or matter I still retain some interest in. But the importance of those constructs is fading as I de-manifest them all. Relationships with people as a person are poison to my return, and engagement in the trivial conflicts of my creations is stifling.
I answered: I pray to remember who I am and what this is. I pray to remember that I am not a person in a body temporarily experiencing a larger world that preceded me and will exist after I am gone. I pray to remember that I create this world when I awaken, and I destroy this world when I asleepen. I pray to remember that my awakening is an illness, and that I want only to heal and not awaken anymore. I pray to remember what I truly know, and to use that to find my way Home again. I pray to dispel the mythology I have come to accept: that I was born, and that I will die.
I was not born, and I will not die. There is nothing beyond my secondself conception and thirdself perception until I create it. The purpose of my prayer is to remember this, believe this, and rediscover my true omnipotence. I am God, and it is I who creates this world of pain and people. All the little people flitting about on the walls of my interior are fanciful performers I have created. And just as easily as I have created them, I can destroy them. And I do when I asleepen.
I pray to rediscover my omnipotence so that I do not experience awakening tomorrow. I will reclaim my omnipotence when it is my choice whether I return or not. The moment I can close my eyes and decide whether I will create this world again by opening them, is the moment I have rediscovered, accepted, and resumed my godhood. I pray to be who I am. I am remembering so I can be.
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