In this incantation, I realize that my previous awakening reached a state of clarity through the recognition that my projections, both internal and external, define my experience of movement and creation. Instead of simply “going outside,” I understand that I outject my external world while injecting internal thoughts, emotions, and desires. This reframing shifts my perception from being a small, physical entity in a large world to becoming the stationary creator, the Projector, who shapes reality through prostruction—building enduring forms and attachments that persist within my moment of awakening.
In my previous awakening I reached a new level of symmetrical articulation that, at least in this moment, seems to be the best and most accurate framing of my awakening.
I consider the statement, “I go outside”.
The issue with this sentence “I go outside” is that it suggests I am the one moving, while “outside” remains static. This way of speaking shapes how I think, believe, and ultimately perceive reality. To change this, I must ask: what is truly moving—me or the outside? In reality, I don’t move; rather, my movement creates the perception of everything else moving around me. I don’t merely walk outside; I conjure, manifest, and bring the outside to me through a coordinated set of bodily actions. My innerself imagines it, and then projects my outerself doing it. This understanding helps me reframe my awakening, but requires some new, symmetrical definitions.
Projection
My awakening divides into two projections: my inner projection of thoughts, feelings, desires, beliefs, time, and sensations; and my outer projection of space, objects, light, color, texture, and movement. The former is my injection, and the latter is my outjection. Injection and outjection are my type types of projection.
I never move: I inject mentally and emotionally, and I outject visually and spatially. With this language I can replace the assertion “I am going outside” with “I am outjecting outside”. In the former I am physically moving somewhere, and there is no reference to the part of me which does not move or change. In that one statement I reduce myself to a small single being moving around a large, immovable universe. However, when I use the projection model I leave room in the statement for the Projector. The Author. The Creator. The God that is in Me. That is Me.
But this is only part of the model.
My moment encompasses the entirety of my being. It remains constant in the sense that I always exist within this single, continuous moment in my awakening. It’s not a collection of countless separate moments but one singular moment—much like how I have one computer screen that can display countless different UI configurations. The unchanging aspect of my moment is its very existence; what changes is what I project onto it. These projections — both internal injections and external outjections — are in a state of constant flux.
I am perpetually altering the contents of my moment through the process of injection and outjection. Injection is the inner projection, while outjection is the outer projection. The entirety of my awakening is the sum of my inner and outer selves. The more I think, read, contemplate, and mentally explore, the more expansive the surface area of my innerself becomes. Conversely, the more I move, see, travel, and physically experience, the more expansive the surface area of my outerself becomes. To heal and recover, I must reduce this surface area. This means injecting and outjecting less—thinking and desiring less, and moving around less.
I am stationary. From this stationary position, I project both my innerself and outerself. I am not the body that appears to move through space, nor am I the collection of qualities, characteristics, and feelings that I perceive as my persona. These are merely projections.
Prostruction
If projection has to do with inner and outer movement, then prostruction is concerned with inner and outer building. Prostruction is purposeful projection with the intention of learning, aspiring, achieving, possessing, and creating. Through prostruction I create and sustain rigid inner and outer forms that endure in my moment. Instruction is the building of rigid internal forms, and outstruction is the building of rigid external forms. I experience these forms as spaces that become persistent features of my awakening.
For example, I am actively building a company. I control the entire thing from a computer screen. It requires very little outjection (external movement) beyond moving my fingers across the 14-inch screen. It requires a tremendous amount of injection as I build out the space internally where this company exists in mindself. This company persists across my sensation of many awakening moments and is always just a thought away. It is a fixation, and I am actively shaping it into a rigid part of my awakening. Why? Because I am building a space where it will give me what I want: freedom from the need to project.
While I am actively instructing, my outstruction has virtually ceased. Rather than creating and maintaining outer spaces, I am actively withdrawing from them. I am not creating new persistent outer forms that require maintenance and various types of projections. Every new prostruction (inner or outer) will entangle me in projections until I end them. If I instruct a new relationship with a person, imagine all of the injections that will follow. In this way, prostructions are larger, more purposeful projections with the intention of creating, achieving, or possessing something long-term. Prostruction prolongs my awakening moment because it results in my attachment to awakening spaces that form fishhook-like structures that are difficult to remove.
Conclusion
Projection and prostruction are essentially the same thing. They are the mechanism by which I create and experience my awakening moment. Projection is the process by which I maneuver and fill my inner and outer cavities with features, and prostruction is the process by which I fill those cavities with persistent features. In this way, prostruction is a form of projection oriented toward creating longer-term attachments. Prostruction is a creative, mindful process of value creation resulting in attachment. If I buy something for my home, I am prostructing because I will fill that new object with value and create both an injection and outjection to maintain it.
This model requires some refinement before it is clear, but I can see its usefulness already.
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