In this incantation I introduce and refine the concept of two languages: the personal and the divine. My goal is to shift away from the personal language of conjuration and toward the divine language and transformation.
Yesterday I referenced the “backwards language” in an incantation. The language of the person. The language of the person among people, having one experience among many others, in a single place among many other places, at a single time among many other times.
The personal language is limiting. It uses words and constructs that anticipate more and know less. The personal language always leaves room for more than there is right here, right now. Personal language is the device of conjuration; of creating something from nothing.
A simple personal sentence such as “I am walking to the restaurant” conjures a secondself visualization that I exist in a larger physical world in which a restaurant is somewhere other than right here. It conjures the belief that I can reach this restaurant that is not here by walking across the face of a larger planet to get there. Personal language conjures the journey across this planet in secondself: up the mountain, along the road on the Kasar Devi ridge, and into the restaurant upstairs to the bench where I like to sit and eat. Personal language conjures all this in secondself.
Divine language, to the contrary, reinforces the truth: that I am all there is. There are no other beings like me; there are no other experiences than mine; there are no other places than here; there are no other times than right now. There is only my moment, and the appearance of change in secondself and thirdself are the disease I am trying to overcome. The restaurant, where I will eat, is not in another place; it is a matter of me transforming my moment. I do not walk across a mountain larger than myself to get there. I simply transform the contents of my moment into the restaurant that serves me food. I do not walk up the mountain and across the ridge to some free-standing restaurant that has an existence apart from me; I transform the flesh of my moment into that form
The restaurant does not exist outside of me. It does not serve customers when I am not there. The restaurant exists only in my moment and only to serve me. I do not go there to the restaurant; I manifest it here. Personal language introduces a there and then when there is only a here and now. Personal language does not draw this distinction and distorts the restaurant and its owner into something it is not: a free-standing building that pre-existed my experience of it and will exist after I stop visiting. That is not true. That restaurant will cease to be the moment I stop transforming my flesh into it.
I do not go there to the restaurant; I manifest it here. Personal language conjures a larger place that I am within. I am only one person, and there are others. I am experiencing only one “here”, and there are infinite “theres”. I am only experiencing one “now”, but there are infinite other “thens”. When I switch to the divine language I will not go there to the restaurant; I will bring it here. My language will not conjure the image of me walking up a mountain and along the ridge to be there; it will acknowledge the transformation I will undergo to manifest it here. What I personally imagine as a physical journey outside is actually a fabrication. I do not walk up the mountain; I fabricate the restaurant by reshaping my flesh into it. And that restaurant is fabricated out of the mountain, the road, and all the elements that go into creating that experience.
I do not know if “conjuration” is the right word to express what I do with the personal language. Nor do I know exactly how conjuration and transformation and manifestation all work together yet. I have to formalize these words more. But I know that personal language introduces the notion of there being more beyond the horizons of my experience. When I enter the restaurant, the personal scripts that runs in my head presumes that those people have been there servicing other patrons before me. It compels me to believe that there are other people, other times, and other experiences than my own. There are not. When I walk into that restaurant, I am creating it. I create all those people to service me. They do not have a substance beyond my experience of it unless I conjure it up in secondself.
When I use personal language I leave room for all the distortions and mistruths. My illness hides in the personal language. I do not go to the restaurant; I manifest it. I do not fly to America; I manifest it. I do not find success; I manifest it. I do not sell my product to users; I manifest those users using my product. The language of manifestation is the divine language. I must abolish the personal language and switch to the divine language to align with the truth of my awakening. As I make the switch my awakening experience will change. At first I will find it difficult to maintain the divine language since the personal language is so deeply embedded into the very core of my secondself. But when I do make the shift, other truths will become apparent to me that I normally ignore.
Below are some practical examples:
- Personal: I want to go to Munsyari. I am going to Munsyari. I went to Munsyari.
- Divine: I will manifest Munsyari. I am manifesting Munsyari. I manifested Munsyari. Munsyari does not exist in thirdself until I transform it from secondself into thirdself.
- Personal: I am going to the restaurant.
- Divine: I am manifesting the restaurant. The restaurant does not exist in thirdself until I transform it from secondself into thirdself.
I must solidify the meaning of “manifestation”. When I manifest, I am using my divine creative powers to reshape the flesh of my moment into something else. When I think of a person in secondself and then I meet them in thirdself, I transformed that character from secondself (mental) to thirdself (physical). I do that. That person does not exist in thirdself until I manifest them in thirdself. These characters exist only as I write them in the same way as the characters in a book of fiction exist only in the imagination of the author who created them.
I am always here now. My moment is the only moment there is, and it is I alone who shapes it. My moment is a giant lump of clay that I fashion into my secondself and thirdself experiences. I render and shape all the people, places, objects, colors, lights, and sensations of my moment from the same fleshy clay. I can instantly see the true shape of my clay by closing my eyes, closing thirdself: that cloudy, dark substance is the flesh of my firstself being. When I open thirdself again, open my eyes, my flesh is rendered into the people, places, objects, colors, lights, and sensations of my awakening. That is manifestation. It is happening right now. I do not need to explain “how” it happens, only believe that it is happening. I cannot arrive at the “how” of manifestation until I accept and believe that it is. One comes before the other. I must simply prove it to myself and believe that what is happening, is actually happening. That what is, actually is.
I do not traverse a larger physical space to get somewhere. I fabricate the flesh of my moment into the place I seek. I do not traverse the mountain to the restaurant. I transform my moment into the shape of the restaurant.
** I do not like the word “divine” as the counterpart to “personal” and will search for a better word.
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