In this incantation, I grapple with the process of differentiating between my secondself and thirdself, representing the layers of my awakening experience. I describe people not as beings like myself, but as narrative constructs whose depth and form are shaped by how I engage with them. By naming them “people of secondself” (conceptualized) and “people of thirdself” (perceptualized), I seek clarity in how they exist within ASWASWAS—a layered reality I inhabit. My aim is to gradually detach from these figures, limiting my interactions and progressing toward a state where no people occupy my thirdself or secondself, a step toward complete demanifestation.
I have long struggled to re-organize the world of secondself and thirdself—the world of my awakening, the world of my moment. There are so many words and descriptions, and if I fail to define one concept precisely, it affects others downstream, blurring the realization I am trying to reach. One such concept is “people.” I recognize that I am not a person, and that people are not beings in the same way I am. I understand them as characters in a narrative I write, and the more I engage with them, the deeper they become. Their forms shift depending on how I manifest them, and their perceived self-awareness is merely a reflection of the narrative I assign to them. They lack a firstself—the inner awareness and depth I possess. What they seek is always ahead of them, while what I seek is behind me.
Despite this, I still habitually think of myself as a person. To minimize that and more clearly distinguish myself from them, I will refer to them as “the people of secondself and thirdself.” People of the secondself are those I conceptualize, and people of the thirdself are those I perceptualize. There is a continuity between these two realms, as some people of the secondself become people of the thirdself. By calling them “the people of the secondself and thirdself,” I can better locate them within ASWASWAS—a space within a space within a space.
There are far fewer people of my thirdself compared to those of my secondself, and only a select few are welcome in both realms. I deliberately exclude certain people from both the imaginary secondself and thirdself—those tied to the past or future, for example. My aim is to gradually remove all people from my thirdself, and eventually from my secondself as well. I have already begun this process by closing off my thirdself from the outside world, limiting my interactions with others to the confines of a screen. To complete this process of demanifestation, I must construct my anchorage.
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