In this incantation, I embrace unwakening, a return to the peaceful valley where my mindself, bodyself, and worldself—each a projection of my being—are reconciled. As my expressions align with my true experience, the once clouded and disconnected words I uttered become clear, confident, and truthful. These three projections, though distinct in form and sensation, arise from the same source, my true self. Through unwakening, I dissolve the illusion of separation and reunite with the peaceful oneness beneath the surface of these projections.
As I pursue unwakening, my expressions grow more articulate, more aligned with the truth of my being. As I type this I feel that alignment. I feel the strength of the truth that I project forth into my worldself. It as if previously I uttered noises resembling words, sometimes with full confidence, unaware of their disconnect from truth. But now my words are crisp, clear, and projected with growing confidence of their truthfulness. Truthful because my words are aligning with my experience.
I revive a word three-years deep into my moment: triself. I will dispose of firstself, secondself, and thirdself, and introduce words more inline with my actual experience: mindself, bodyself, and worldself. All are projections of my own, sharing in source but differing in quality, affect, and experience only. They are all the inflamed tissue of my being, causing unique pains in my awakening. They are not me, but projections of me.
My awakening is the experience of these three separate but connected projections. My mindself is a space filled with thought, desire, and time-shaped projections. My bodyself is a space filled with feeling and sensation-shaped projections. And my worldself is a space filled with light, color, and form-shaped projections. All three originate at the exact same point because all three are extensions of my true being. My awakening is their projection; they are one and the same. The degree to which I allow myself to become immersed in the experience of my projections directly corresponds to the degree of my awakening. When I am most confused, I find myself simultaneously on the tops of three mountains enshrouded in clouds. But when I unwaken, I realize that all three mountains descend and reunite in one peaceful valley. My unwakening is my return to that peaceful valley.
My awakening sanctuary is important because it will help me realize that worldself is my fabrication I have made it up entirely. It is not actually here, or there. Worldself is my delusion. I am imagining it is there; my eyes are projecting worldself and my mindself is reinforcing its reality. I am what I experience when I close my eyes, and everything else is my projection. The triself is my awakening state of disorientation in which I try to make sense of these three aspects of my experience: my mind of thoughts, my body of sensations, and my world of forms. All three originate in the same place: my being.
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