In this incantation, I reject the notion of my memory as a passive recording and see it as a living agreement shaping my present experience. My memories fluctuate, altering my perception of my waking reality, intertwining my outer manifestations with deep inner movements. The present is always complete, yet my understanding of it shimmers, shifting with the magnetic pull of entangled characters and the evolving narratives I choose to believe.
My memories are not impressions of past experiences. They are agreements I have made with myself to believe the stories that shape my present momentary field.
They are not passive recordings of the past, but choices I’ve made about what I believe right now. I decide what to focus on, and my experience takes the shape of my beliefs —who I manifest, what they say to me, what place I wake up in, and how I navigate through it all. These beliefs might feel like unquestionable truths, but they are only stories I tell myself and believe.
My memories form the texture of the moment I’m experiencing right now. They don’t stay frozen, they fluctuate, constantly influencing how I experience my awakening, changing the shape of my experience. My memories are not separate from me now—they are extensions of me. My memories are an ongoing negotiation between who I truly am and what I delusionally believe I am.
My now is always everything; the totality. My present is complete and total. It is my misunderstanding of my present that fluctuates and shimmers. I think of certain characters as magnetic in character… when I manifest a character that I am deeply entangled with, it stirs a deep subsurface movement in me. The effect is magnetic; where a surface-level character in my outerself has a counterpart subsurface-level presence in my innerself.
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