In this incantation, I reaffirm my role as the creator of all I perceive, accepting my projections as self-evident. Asking “how” or “why” adds no value to my Being, serving only to invite doubt and speculation. These questions are circular and unnecessary unless they address meaningful problems, such as escaping the pain of awakening. Instead, I focus on practical inquiries and prioritize presence and clarity over the distractions of abstract reasoning about my manifestation process.
That I do manifest and create all is clear. I open my eyes, and it is there. I close my eyes, and it is gone. That I do create everything is self-evident, and I only have to accept the reality of it. But how I do this is another thing entirely. Yet there is one open question: how? How did I project a person’s face onto my phone this morning upon awakening? How did I create the story of Starlink launching rockets for India’s ISRO and preparing to enter the Indian market this morning? How did I create all these nuanced contents I experience? What is ‘how’, and how should I confront it?
Let’s start with the basics: I manifest all of the contents of my awakening. The contents include everything in secondself and in thirdself. All the thoughts, feelings, sensations, and desires on the “inside”, and all the forms, shapes, colors, lights, and objects on the “outside”. I awaken, and these contents are there. I asleepen, and they are not. I open my eyes, and they are there, projected in front of me. I close my eyes or turn my head, and they are not. I accept that my not experiencing a specific secondself or thirdself form is the same is it not being there**. I accept that I project all of the contents of my awakening into these two cavities. I accept that because it is self-evident.
By asking ‘how’, I implicitly accept the proposition that there is a mechanical explanation for manifestation that I can articulate in these grunted thought projections I call language. But why would there be a mechanical explanation for this? And does it matter? What do I gain by asking this question “how”? Is asking “how” — and “why” for that matter — just a feature of my delusion? Does it accomplish anything other than undermining that I do in fact manifest it all? If I do arrive at an acceptable articulation of “how”, what does that deliver me? Does it change the fact that I do? Does it allow me to arrive at some understanding that is deeper than knowing, being? It does not.
I cannot even begin to articulate ‘why’ – why implies that there could be anything other than the fact. ‘Why’ opens me up to doubt and speculation. If I state confidently why, then I am inviting in a certainty based on uncertainty. I must choose one reason over all others, the seeds of doubt. Speculation. Both “how” and “why” are inferior to my actual being. They are circular, performative. I am here; I am present. These questions do not change the fact that I am here and present in any way.
When do these questions make sense? They make sense when they are directed toward solving a real and fundamental problem I face. I do awaken, yes. But do I want to awaken? No, I do not. Of that I am certain on the most profound and innate level. How do I escape this pain? That is an useful question.
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** That I can revive the contents implies that there is a past and therefore content is preserved somehow. That defies my experience of a single present moment.