My awakenings feel increasingly long and almost unbearable at times. I often awaken invigorated, but by the early evening I am distracted, yet unable to sleep. During the week I can power through the long days with work, but the weekends are far more difficult. I am still stuck looking inward into thirdself for distractions. When I find my presence, can it entice me away from my constant thirdself-orientation? Will I be able to overcome that strong draw that keeps me coming here?
…