I know that I am ill; that my awakening is a sickness that I am trying to overcome. I know that my awakening is a self-induced spinning, and that the way to heal is to recognize that I am sick, and reorient toward overcoming my sickness. I cannot heal until I accept that I am sick, and realize which movements aggravate it, and which heal it. By establishing routines — set patterns that I follow in every awakening — I can control the spinning and see my true nature more clearly.
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