It looks like I first introduced the idea of “origination” back in January 2022 — nearly two years ago. This how I defined it in “Conversation with an ascentist” on January 7, 2022:
Ascentist – What is “origination”?
Descentist – Origination is my how I understand my existence. I either know exactly what it is. Or I don’t.
Ascentist – How can you know?
Descentist – I know because I decided that I can know.
Ascentist – But how can you know everything; I’m sure I can find endless books you have never read.
Descentist – Everything there is to know, is right here, right now. This place, this strange room, is elastic; it takes the only thing there actually is — this moment, this now, my first self — and it stretches it endlessly, distorting it in all directions, inner and outer. Everything there is to know about this place and all of its distortions, can be found in the beginning and ending, which are the same thing: now. All these middle distortions do not change that beginning and ending. Those books that you talk about, will have the same beginning and ending; Me. I know the beginning and the ending; I wake up from Me, and I fall asleep to Me. That is the beginning and the ending, and that is all there is to know.
In a January 3, 2022 incantation called “Origination“, I described it as “the foundation for everything I believe, value, want, and do in my life”. I saw it as the convictions I hold which drive my entire life performance. It was more of a theory of the origins of my perspective, hence my use of the word “origination”.
But there is a more suitable concept for the word “origination” that is focused more on creation and from today, I will repossess origination and assign a different meaning. From today forward, origination will refer to the layers in which creativity occur. By creativity I mean activity.
Thirdself origination is the most evident around me. When I look around me now I see a radiator made of metal and plastics and filled with oils and attached to a power grid that keeps it running, heating my home. There are candles made of paraffin wax. There are various routers and internet cables behind the curtains, and perfectly shaped aluminum rods upon which the curtains hang. There is a small brass murti of Lakshmi and Ganesha on my side table beside me, and three phones. These are all examples of Thirdself origination; objects and spaces created by forces I might imagine exist outside of me, in Thirdself. This header is made by a company named Morphy Richards. Two of my phones created by Samsung, one by Apple. The candles made in a factory 100 kilometers away in Haldwani.
Secondself origination comprises creativity that I would say my Character owns and creates. Upon awakening, my creative mind begins to ideate and process, compelling movement of my bodily vessel (which forms the transition between Secondself and Thirdself, having an existence in both). Combined, my thinking and bodily movement form into innovation, creativity, and expression. Secondself origination encapsulates those objects I introduce into Thirdself (or Fourthself) and which originate within Secondself. For example, I might build a house; the structure itself is of Secondself origination, but there is Thirdself origination of the lumber from a mill in Almora, and the wood comes from nature. The software that I build during the weekdays would qualify as Secondself origination, but the computer I use made by Apple would be Thirdself origination.
Everything in my awakening experience will have either Secondself or Thirdself origination so long as I assume the perspective of being a person among people in a place among other places in a time among other times. When I accept that I am a person experiencing personhood in a much larger world that contains me, an that pre-existed my birth and will extend beyond my death, then I can cleanly and precisely identify the various objects of my awakening in terms of their origination; those my own person created; those created by other people; and those we can attribute to nature itself. I created my meal (Secondself origination); the rice was cultivated by local villagers and the bowl created by a factory (Thirdself origination). But what of the land and all of the weather events that were required to turn seed into nutritious food? If I ascribe this process to a religion, I might say that the land and space itself was created by a divine being. If I ascribe to a scientific ideology, I might say that the land and space was formed by larger physical processes I do not understand. In both, I leave room for something greater than my own self (Secondself) or any other person (Thirdself) to have absolute creative control.
I will pause for a moment and refer to Demiself and Omniself. In the Demiselfist perspective I believe I am a person among people, in a place among places, in a time among times. I believe that I am small, and only part of what exists. In the Demiselfist perspective I can easily understand both Secondself and Thirdself origination in terms of which people created what. But then I will either decide if a divine being or scientific force is responsible for creating the fundamental substance and space within which Thirdself and Secondself exist.
In the Omniself perspective, however, there is no uncertainty about the origination of the time, space, and substance I am uncertain of from the Demiselfist perspective. All of that which I attribute to god, randomness, or the universe in the Demiself perspective, I attribute to Firstself in the Omniself perspective. In Omniself, I can accept that my Secondself directly creates certain things, like the meal I eat. And I can accept that, if I were to peer deep into the creation of the red bowl I use, I would manifest a factory in China somewhere. That is Thirdself. However, when I question where all substances and forces originated, I know it was my Firstself because I can trace a direct line between the moment when all those things were not here, and when they were.
Firstself origination is the foundational creativity that occurs when I awaken, and when I move within my awakening. Prior to my awakening, there is nothing – there is no ground, sky, forest, creatures, or bodily sensations. All of that grows out of my awakening. My awakening. I merely have to close my eyes and open them again to observe my own role in manifestation. I only have to manifest and speak to a person, and then demanifest that person by walking away to understand my Firstself ability to create and then destroy everything in Thirdself, and change everything in Secondself.
If it changes, then it is not part of Firstself, but it is created by Firstself. Firstself is not separate from Secondself and Thirdself; it is the full being in which both exist. Firstself is the entirety of everything I experience in Secondself and Thirdself, with the addition of my infinite presence. I could call it my “consciousness”, but that term is generally defined in relation to surroundings and other objects and concepts which separate from it. There is nothing separate or that is not included in Firstself, for Firstself is everything. There is nothing outside of Firstself. There is nothing that Firstself is not. Secondself and Thirdself are distinct layers within Firstself with their own contents, but they are not separate from it. My Secondself transitions into my Thirdself through my “body”; on the inside is a collection of sensations, but on the outside is a peach-colored surface of skin, bones, and hair. But surrounding and enclosing these two layers is Firstself; that I am.
Just as my body is transitional between Secondself and Thirdself in my awakening, my Firstself body is my sense of self, awareness, identity, and existence; this forms a transitional bridge between my Firstself and Secondself. Firstself origination is the creativity that happens prior to any Secondself or Thirdself creativity. It does not take the time of Secondself or Thirdself.
Firstself origination is instant and all-powerful. It happens before my Secondself can process it. It happens upon my awakening, before my Secondself has activated and blossomed. The three forms of origination combine together in layers; Firstself creates the land, air, space, time, nature, and environment. Secondself creates through ideation and navigation. And Thirdself is responsible for all those things I want, but which I cannot directly produce through Secondself. They all exist within this yolk that extends from my face, which I can extinguish by moving. Thirdself origination is infinitely elastic; I can look at anything with Thirdself origination and follow it endlessly in time and space. Firstself is also infinitely elastic; I can walk forever without experiencing exact repetition. And Thirdself origination is rabidly multiplying.
The point is that everything that was mysterious and unresolved in the Demiselfist perspective, can be demonstrably resolved with Firstself origination. I cannot refute the truth that everything within this entire experience I call my awakening vanishes when I am not here. The only constant in the entire Secondself and Thirdself experience is me. Firstself. I am the constant. Nothing exists without me. It is my awakening that is responsible for the land, the sky, the trees, the people, the computer I use, the heater, the bed I sleep on, the ideas I have, and the things my Secondself character creates. There is nothing uncertain. I know it all. I know how everything is built. How everything is created. Naturally, Firstself does not use the tools of Thirdself or Secondself to create everything, and therefore it makes no sense to try to comprehend my Firstself in that way. The language of Secondself and Thirdself is unable to express the creativity of Firstself. But my own eyes can easily see it. My own experience substantiates and validates it. If I do not awaken, none of this is here.
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