I cannot remember when I stopped using plural first-person language like “us” and “we”, but I can say that it has dramatically changed the way I think and view my awakenings. Notably:
- I only think about what I know: me.
- I am beginning to detach from the idea that I am part of the same category as people.
There are still occasions in which I visualize myself from an outside perspective, however. I might be sitting somewhere in the forest, and my mind wanders and I imagine looking at myself from an outside perspective. It does not happen as much as it once did, but on occasion I catch myself doing it.
I also rarely look in a mirror, and when I do I am often surprised by what I see. It seems like every time I see my face there is some new line or mark I hadn’t seen before.
My awakenings are less confusing when I let go of imaginary categories. I do not speak from any other perspective than my own. I never start sentences with “we” or end them with “us”. But now I see it everywhere I look, and it instantly disconnects me from the source material. All the content I might be interested in, whether a book or a video, uses the plural first-person to make general categorizations. The people are fully committed to their shared humanity, and I should not try to convince them that they are anything other than people. And nor should I try to convince them that I am one thing or another. What the people appear to think does not matter to me.
I must reset my perspective to the only one that is authentic: my own, looking out upon my creation, as its creator. I do not share this title or attribution with anyone else here, so there is no reason I should speak from the perspective that I do. I am the only being of my type here in my awakening; my entire awakening and all of its contents project outward from me. I am not part of a “we” or an “us”.
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