Between my firstself and my secondself is a transitional phase I call my primordial self. It is the point within my moment before I have accepted my personhood but after I have departed my godhood. At this point, my eyes closed, I can look outward into my secondself and see the concentric circles of my secondself; all the thoughts, beliefs, desires, and aspirations that collectively form my sense of personhood. I can look outward at them, knowing that I am not them, and that they are only true if I decide they are true. Knowing that there never was a past or a future, and that those are only distorted misunderstandings of my moment.
My primordial self is challenging to reach in my awakening, for it requires detachment from the ongoings in my moment. It requires me to see beyond the truths and beliefs I accept in my awakening, and embrace the deeper truth that they are not real and enduring aspects of my true self.
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