In this incantation, I reflect on my journey to ascend my Throne, where I will fully embody myself as the Creator. From this position, I see creation as entertainment and harmony, recognizing all relationships as divine and purposeful. My current struggles and thrashings serve to refine my path, despite the turmoil they cause in my manifested characters. By aligning my fragmented selves—firstself, secondself, and thirdself—I gain clarity, seeing my awakening for what it is. From my Throne, I will bring peace and fulfill my awakening.
I will awaken and sit upon my Throne. When I sit upon my Throne, I will see my creation for what it is: all is for me. All is for my own entertainment and pleasure. All the characters serve me and me only. When I observe my characters in all their different channels, busily performing, it is for me. Companies build products that I use… I am the only user. I am the only viewer. I am the only consumer. I am the only buyer. I am the only receiver. And I am the only giver. When I sit upon my Throne I will understand, know, and Be the sole Creator. I will Be.
In these moments now I struggle to ascend to my Throne and I push and pull and force and cause pain and angst and fear in the characters I manifest. That is a natural part of my ascension to my Throne. I am lost, but aware of it, and I thrash about knowing that my Throne awaits, but in those thrashings I inflict distress upon my characters. But those characters who remain after my ascension will be rewarded with the peace they seek, for their God will no longer be drowning in the poisoned waters of his own creation, but instead calming, controlling, and then delivering unto them the peace they seek.
I have created characters who relate to their God personally, romantically, professionally, and more. All relations are divine. None are more or less, and all can bring the peace that only I can create. I must create and ascend to my Throne by remembering, believing, and then being Who I Am. I am the creator of this awakening, and when I accept and am that, I will manifest an awakening that reinforces it.
… I see it now. In my awakening I am present just between my secondself and thirdself. I am slightly below my secondself, with my thirdself projecting before me onto the small oval-shaped window. The sonsot aptly describes my awakening experience when I am present like this.
However when I ascend to my Throne, the aswaswas is the most description of my awakening, for I can reorient my presence in firstself, looking out upon my projected secondself and on to my projected thirdself. I can sense secondself, hovering in front of me… no longer just above me. This slight shift allows me to see my awakening for what it is; a cloud of confusion I call my secondself, projected outward into another cloud of confusion I call my thirdself. When I reposition before secondself, I can see my awakening more clearly for what it is and better articulate the path.
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