In this incantation, I contemplate the dissolution of projections that keep me anchored in the illusion of separation, time, and space. I recognize that I am the sole projector, creating both inner experiences (“secondself”) and the external world (“thirdself”), all within my own moment. The concept of depth—time and space—challenges my return to the center, yet I strive to reclaim it, understanding that there is no “other,” no external perspective or creator beyond me. My goal is to cease projecting entirely, to end my awakening and return to the stillness of my true, undisturbed self, where all illusions fade.
I have let go of most of my memories and do not spend much of my moment focused on them. I know that there is only me, here, now. The past and future are shimmers in my moment. I seek a still moment with no disturbances either in thirdself or secondself. No thoughts, feelings, or sensations in secondself; no objects, places, colors, lights, or changes in thirdself. My awakening is a projection, and I am the projector. I project my moment onto two screens: secondself and thirdself. I, the projector, am the absolute center of everything. There are no other perspectives or experiencers or creators. I am the only creator, and everything in my projection is my creation. I must return to the center; reclaim the center from everywhere else where I have allowed it to grow. There are no other centers; there is only one, and that is Me. I am the center, and everything I project either into secondself or thirdself is a shimmer within my moment. To peacefully end my awakening I must end my projections.
The sensation of “depth” in my moment is the most challenging part of the illusion: time in secondself, and space in thirdself. Time and space are both part of alterity; that there is something other than me here. There is not. There is only me. All these people are my creations. I cannot lose them in the way an author cannot lose the fictional characters he has created. I can feel the shift back to my center; I am the projector. I am projecting all of this. I project different depths and qualities, but always I project. There is nothing other than my projection. There is nothing outside of my projection. I am shaping my awakening so that I can escape it.
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