The Selfist Model is the result of my lifelong search for a complete explanation of my existence. What is a “complete explanation”? It is one fundamental answer with one practical purpose: guide me what to do. It is not an intellectual exercise, or a philosophy to discuss with the people of my thirdself. I want to know what to do in this place I wake up into every day.
I have started and stopped this pursuit countless times, every draft representing failure and frustration, along with some new insight that gave me the confidence to start over. I would work months, sometimes years, on a single draft until it became too complex and unmanageable, derailed by informational inflation. There was always more to be found, and even more I admitted I would never know. I had to create separate piles of information for those that did not fit, and eventually, the sub-piles would outweigh the main structure. So I would throw out the model and start over.
Every effort ended the exact same way: the non-integrated information would overcome the rest. My theoretical structures would collapse in on themselves, and I would have to restart. There is a vast city of incomplete structures described throughout a lifetime of notes, drafts, and journals handwritten, recorded, and drawn. I always valued the past structures because they had a lot of great work in them. So in the process of starting a new one, I would harvest the best parts of the old one.
It was not until I understood the nature of information itself, that I began to assemble a structure that could outlast the constant of inflation. Instead of striving to wrap my arms around an ever-increasing supply of information, I began to stand back and observe the mechanism of this inflation. In that process, I realized that I did not need to account for every piece of known and unknown information. I merely had to understand its nature. Simplicity was not optional; it was a defining requirement.
This gave me capstone from which I could then meticulously lay out all my arguments. The result was the Selfist Model.
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