In personhood, I believe the world existed before me. I believe that I am only a temporary observer of an enduring world. I believe I am a person, like all others surrounding me, despite the overwhelming experiential evidence that I am not a person.
In demigodhood, I begin to question the narrative I have accepted. I question why I imagine existence to be so different than my experience of it. Why do I believe in time, when I only experience this moment? Why do I believe I am a person, when it is my awakening which creates the world of experience? Why do I believe things exist that I can never experience? Why do I yearn to be recognized as something greater than the person I believe I am? Why do I constantly search for something I never find? Why can I never get enough?
The Bible is deep within my emanation. In demiself, I would say I first learned about the Bible when I was a very young child. But in triself (demigodhood), I know that those memories are merely prismatic reflections of this moment; that the sense of distance in space and time is an artifact of the distortion of personhood and desire. I know that there is no linear timeline extending into the past and future. I know that every awakening I revive and recreate the same stack of convictions that hold me in demipotent personhood; and as I look upon myself now, my gaze splits into the time and distance I experience as memories.
In truth, I create the Bible now. Always now, in my moment. For there is only my moment. The Bible is my reminder of who I am; it exists only when I emanate it. Only when I think about it. Only when I look upon it. I manifest it. It is my word shining back at me. It is not distant in time or space; it is right now, as I project it on the wallpaper of my being. In the Bible I clearly describe who I am. I am God, and I have created this world and filled it with all the people and creatures in my thirdself. The Bible describes my awakening, which I experience as a daily reincarnation into this body and person.
I write:
[1:1] In the beginning I created the heavens and the earth.
I created the heavens and the earth. I divided the infinite space of my firstself into a solid ground upon which I walk, and an infirm heaven above me. I created this duality when I awakened. It is my very first act upon creation, upon my awakening.
[1:2] Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and My Spirit was hovering over the waters.
I exist in limbo as I awaken. I know who I am, yet I also know I am becoming.
[1:3] And I said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.
[1:4] I saw that the light was good, and I separated the light from the darkness.
I open my eyes. I create my thirdself of light and forms and objects and people and places. I separate it from my true being in firstself.
[1:5] I called the light “day,” and the darkness I called “night.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day.
I experience my entire creation as a day.
[1:6] And I said, “Let there be a vault between the waters to separate water from water.”
[1:7] So I made the vault and separated the water under the vault from the water above it. And it was so.
[1:8] I called the vault “sky.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the second day.
[1:9] And I said, “Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place, and let dry ground appear.” And it was so.
[1.10] I called the dry ground “land,” and the gathered waters I called “seas.” And I saw that it was good.
[1:11] Then I said, “Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds.” And it was so.
[1:12] The land produced vegetation: plants bearing seed according to their kinds and trees bearing fruit with seed in it according to their kinds. And I saw that it was good.
[1:13] And there was evening, and there was morning—the third day.
[1:14] And I said, “Let there be lights in the vault of the sky to separate the day from the night, and let them serve as signs to mark sacred times, and days and years,
[1:15] and let them be lights in the vault of the sky to give light on the earth.” And it was so.
[1:16] I made two great lights—the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. I also made the stars.
[1:17] I set them in the vault of the sky to give light on the earth,
[1:18] to govern the day and the night, and to separate light from darkness. And I saw that it was good.
[1:19] And there was evening, and there was morning—the fourth day.
[1:20] And I said, “Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the vault of the sky.”
[1:21] So I created the great creatures of the sea and every living thing with which the water teems and that moves about in it, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to its kind. And I saw that it was good.
[1:22] I blessed them and said, “Be fruitful and increase in number and fill the water in the seas, and let the birds increase on the earth.”
[1:23] And there was evening, and there was morning—the fifth day.
[1:24] And I said, “Let the land produce living creatures according to their kinds: the livestock, the creatures that move along the ground, and the wild animals, each according to its kind.” And it was so.
[1:25] I made the wild animals according to their kinds, the livestock according to their kinds, and all the creatures that move along the ground according to their kinds. And I saw that it was good.
[1:26] Then I said, “Let Me make mankind in My image, in My likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”
[1:27] So I created mankind in My own image, in My image I created them; male and female I created them.
I have created all people in my image, starting with the person typing this post now. They all look toward me, as a person. They come into being when I manifest them.
[1:28] I blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground.”
In demiself, as a person, I have created a world full of billions of people in my imagination.
[1:29] Then I said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food.
[1:30] And to all the beasts of the earth and all the birds in the sky and all the creatures that move along the ground—everything that has the breath of life in it—I give every green plant for food.” And it was so.
In demiself, I consume the creatures of the world.
[1:31] I saw all that I had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day.
[2:1] Thus the heavens and the earth were finished, and all their multitude.
[2:2] And on the seventh day I finished the work that I had done, and I rested on the seventh day from all the work that I had done.
[2:3] So I blessed the seventh day and hallowed it, because on it I rested from all the work that I had done in creation.
[2:4] These are the generations of the heavens and the earth when they were created. In the day that I made the earth and the heavens,
[2:5] when no plant of the field was yet in the earth and no herb of the field had yet sprung up – for I had not caused it to rain upon the earth, and there was no one to till the ground;
[2:6] but a stream would rise from the earth, and water the whole face of the ground –
[2:7] then I formed man from the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and the man became a living being.
[2:8] And I planted a garden in Eden, in the east; and there I put the man whom I had formed.
[2:9] Out of the ground I made to grow every tree that is pleasant to the sight and good for food, the tree of life also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.
[2:10] A river flows out of Eden to water the garden, and from there it divides and becomes four branches.
[2:11] The name of the first is Pishon; it is the one that flows around the whole land of Havilah, where there is gold;
[2:12] and the gold of that land is good; bdellium and onyx stone are there.
[2:13] The name of the second river is Gihon; it is the one that flows around the whole land of Cush.
[2:14] The name of the third river is Tigris, which flows east of Assyria. And the fourth river is the Euphrates.
[2:15] I took the man and put him in the garden of Eden to till it and keep it.
[2:16] And I commanded the man, “You may freely eat of every tree of the garden;
[2:17] but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall die.”
[2:18] Then I said, “It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper as his partner.”
[2:19] So out of the ground I formed every animal of the field and every bird of the air, and brought them to the man to see what he would call them; and whatever the man called every living creature, that was its name.
[2:20] The man gave names to all cattle, and to the birds of the air, and to every animal of the field; but for the man there was not found a helper as his partner.
[2:21] So I caused a deep sleep to fall upon the man, and he slept; then I took one of his ribs and closed up its place with flesh.
[2:22] And the rib that I had taken from the man I made into a woman and brought her to the man.
[2:23] Then the man said, “This at last is bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; this one shall be called Woman, for out of Man this one was taken.”
[2:24] Therefore a man leaves his father and his mother and clings to his wife, and they become one flesh.
[2:25] And the man and his wife were both naked, and were not ashamed.
I have recorded all chapters here.
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