To be able to look at that which does not change for long, I must dispel the delusions I maintain. For once I begin to remember the delusions, I question what I am seeing, and I look away. For example, I am not a person among other people. But if I look at a familiar face and believe that we are two people with a relationship, I will no longer be able to look at that which does not change because they contradict one another and I will have to choose one.
That which does not change clearly reveals that I am all there is. That I am alone in my being-ness, and that there are no others like me, because I am all there is. But if I believe that these fleshy shapes floating around in my awakening are similar and equivalent to me, then I can no longer believe that I am the only being.
Once I see the people as they are, I will not want anything from them that for they would not have anything that I need. What does the author want from the characters he writes in his stories? It can only be described as a horrible state of delusion for the author to believe he is actually one of the characters moving about in the story he himself wrote.
I write:
- Me and all experience I create
- There is no “you” that exists outside of my moment
- I am not yet certain how I will convey that to my creations
- but once i do, my creations will know that they exist only in my moment
- Once I see the people as they are, I will not want anything from them that for they would not have anything that I need. What does the author want from the characters he writes in his stories?
- What does Mark Twain want from Huckleberry Finn in his written stories?
- Nothing. Because he is their author, their creator. They only exist in his imagination.
- They cannot give him anything he could possibly want.
- It would be delusional for the author to believe he is a character in the book he has written himself.
- My awakening is my book that I wrote.
- Every single thing within my awakening, I precede.
- If I am not there, then it does not happen.
- That is precisely which does not change: Me.
- I am the constant.
- Not the Me that extends into the grotesque Secondself and Thirdself.
- The Me that precedes Secondself and Thirdself, Firstself.
- Secondself and Thirdself are itchy, scratchy, painful blisters.
- There is a great big, massive, infinite body beyond the itchy scratchy blisters of my secondself and thirdself.
- And when I come back to my larger body, I can see that this painful part is merely a wound I must treat.
- a wound that I have allowed to fester into all this pain
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