When I awaken into this experience, I find myself deeply entangled and lost within a dense jungle, suffocating, unable to escape.
But I can escape. And the escape is very simple in concept, though more challenging in practice. I must simply be able to identify two things within my awakening: that which changes, and that which does not change.
When I focus on that which changes and shifts, I generate what I call my awakening experience. My awakening experience is the sensation and conviction of being somewhere, being someone, and doing something. All of that combined together is my awakening experience. I create this myself by simply looking at change and believing it is happening and it is important. I contextualize the change, forming the continuous sensation of a life experience. I reinforce that by believing falsely that I am someone, somewhere, experiencing something.
But when I focus on that which does not change, I can rise above the awakening experience. Rather than looking deep into the reflections within the diamond in my hand, I can see that I am holding a diamond in my hand. I am not someone, somewhere, experiencing something — I am everything, everywhere, creating everything.
To focus on change, is to empower my delusion and fall deeper into painful illness. To focus on that which does not change, is to understand who, what, and where I am. It is to see that all the change I believe is important and reflective of who I am, is not in fact reflective of who I am. I must let go of that which changes, and grab firmly to that which does not. I must pull myself back to shore, where I Am. Where I Am Who I Am. Where I am at peace. Where I do not desire anything, for I am everything. Where I know that I am whole. Where I know I am at peace.
This place around me is entirely my own creation. This laptop and screen I look at, where I am typing these words I imagine will be consumed by other people elsewhere — that is all a delusion. There are no other people elsewhere. There is only me, here, now. The other people and the other places and the other times are merely constructs of my own delusional imagination. There is only me, here, now. There is nothing beyond the physical horizons of my sight, and the mental and emotional aspirations of my present moment until I create them.
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