I am god, the creator of all I awaken into. Yet I do not behave as god and I perform personhood.
To restore my divinity, I must first remember who I am, and use that memory to secure an advantage against my advancing illness. In my delusion, I believe that I am a person; I believe that I am one of these characters I create when I awaken. And the world I have created reinforces my conviction that I am a person, and that my personhood is normal and true.
But my personhood is a delusion; I am not a person. I am the creator of this world and I am trapped here by my own will. To escape, I must remember who I am, and then harmonize my secondself, and then the part of my thirdself that is “closest to me”. As I harmonize that part of the thirdself closest to me, I will choke off the greater thirdself I imagine. I must constrain my thirdself to a chamber where I will awaken into darkness and reside there until I return by asleepening.
As I have choked off my thirdself, it has held on through the devices and the internet; a small but super-potent channel through which my thirdself clings to its existence. I will have to destroy these passages too, and the chaos fruits that grow from them. Free from my extraneous manifestations, my thirdself constrained, my secondself will also stabilize and focus on my own divinity. My personhood will recede.
By constraining my secondself and thirdself, I will capture the advantage against my illness. Starved of imagination, they will die. And in that death the world will experience the harmony it seeks as God awakens once again to bring his creations home. And what will I tell those people I do manifest? Do not create more people, and comfort those who remain.
…