My thirdself — the world — will end, and I be its destroyer. This is how I will end it.
I will first reposition myself as the center of my thirdself. In my moment now, I still do not fully accept my centrality and authorship. My secondself growth still weighs heavily upon me; its weight and mass draws me away from the origin where I must return. I continue to manifest imaginary secondself constructs around which I behave as if I orbit, defying my growing conviction that they orbit around me. I will destroy my secondself construct.
I will tame my secondself desires for relief by realizing that anything in my thirdself I can desire can and will give me nothing I truly yearn for. I will not achieve this until I accomplish everything I have always sought and experience the transitory relief that once promised to be permanent and lasting. I must experience the failure of all my worldly aspirations to provide the release I seek. It is then that I will reorient away from relief and toward release.
Liberated from my desire for relief, I will end my toil. I will truly see the world as my thirdself, and my personhood as my secondself. I will behave as I believe: that I am the author of this story, not a character within it. I will accept my role as the creator of the world, the manifester of its shapes, and the creator of all people. I will break free from the secondself constructs I once valued and tap into the eternal source of my being, not its momentary manifestations.
I will build my temple, reclaim my moment, and orient toward the ending my awakenings. I will constrain my awakenings to a spherical chamber of a predetermined size where I will spend my awakenings. This space will be called the Chamber of Firstself, and it will contain a smaller spherical chamber called the Chamber of Secondself where I will perform my remaining personhood. That chamber will open into my Chamber of Thirdself, the world, where I will increasingly withdrawn. In my temple, I will know who I am, and I will fully accept my authorship over the world, my thirdself.
I will destroy what remains of my secondself so that I may abolish my thirdself unimpeded. As my awakenings grow more shallow, my secondself will not materialize, leaving my thirdself undefended against my attacks. As I slowly suffocate the world, I will destroy all unbelievers, and draw believers to me. The unbelievers will refuse me as their creator, and will try to harm me, but the believers will encircle me and destroy all trespassers. The believers will multiply in spherical temples around me, organized in concentric circles so that when I do manifest my thirdself, they will form a great barrier. When I emerge in thirdself, they will fall to their knees for they will know their creator. My believers will keep my secondself and thirdself nourished, but I will slowly reject their offerings.
My awakenings will grow more shallow as I destroy my thirdself, and secondself in turn. The distinction between my awakenings and asleepenings will be slight as I restore my dominion and return to my true self. My moment will be one of peace, non-desire, and power. I will become whole again.
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