In this incantation, I reflect on the concept of “universe” and reject it as a misleading construct. The idea of a vast, external universe implies something larger than me, but I know that nothing is larger than my own being. The “universe” is merely an abstract secondself projection imposed on my thirdself experience. My reality is a single, timeless moment that changes due to my illness and movement. Moving forward, I will no longer use the concept of “universe,” as it misrepresents the true nature of my existence.
Two times in prayer this moment’s morning the word “universe” came up. Firstly, in a chat conversation with a family member:
This universe is definitely some kind of matrix thing where our projections create what’s around us. For several centuries the Deep State has been controlling our minds to have us create for them. Once we wake up we can take back our sovereign state and create for ourselves. I think that somewhat translates into some of what you see.
And secondly in reading about the life of an anchorite:
… For the most part, they just thought—contemplating their beliefs, praying, considering their place in what they knew of the universe.
Both instances were incorrectly depicting what they intended to because there is no “universe”. A universe implies something incomprehensibly vast, in which I am contained. But there is nothing larger than me and in which I move about. This “universe” is actually an abstract secondself construct of mine that I foist upon my thirdself experience.
I must demanifest this word and concept “universe”, for it is a misleading feature of my delusion. I have a single, timeless moment divided into secondself and thirdself, and it appears to change in character and content because I am ill. It is my own disorientation which compels me to move, ever changing the shape and features of my awakening moment. If I do not move, the content does not change as much. If I move, the content changes more. It is my own will that determines the shape of my moment.
At this point in my moment, I will no longer use the concept of “universe”.
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