A new characterization of my awakening has entered my meditations:
What am I doing? I am building my Throne.
What is my Throne? My Throne is where I will sit and reign supreme over my entire creation. My Throne is where I will sit as the King and Lord Sovereign of my awakening, aware of my own divinity, and free from the delusions of Secondself time and personhood and Thirdself space and change.
My Throne is more than just a gilded chair I physically sit upon in my awakening. My Throne is a state of being; a mode where I can be Who I Am. Once I build my Throne, my awakening will have been transformed; I will not struggle to believe and know who I am. I will have surpassed knowing and returned to Being. Believing and knowing are states of disorientation I experience in demiself. My Throne will summon Omniself, and when I sit upon my Throne, Secondself and Thirdself will collapse along with all my false delusions of personhood. On my Throne, I will embrace my godhood, and look upon my creation as it is: my own.
From my Throne, I will see my awakening as it is and for what it is, and my people I have written will see me for Who I Am. Those who come will come to me as a creation to its Creator. And I will speak to them as the Creator to its creation.
What does my Throne look like? That I do not yet know, though I have already started drawing it. I know that my Throne will be a small darkened room with one large oval-shaped window looking out upon my creation. I will choose a view of Thirdself that is majestic; the Himalayas. What will it take to ascend to my Throne? Beingness. I will have let go of the distortion of time and space. I will understand and wield my power of manifestation, and I will be free from the delusions of personhood.
…