When I awaken, I am experiencing my transition from godhood to personhood. Awakening is the process of shifting away from Being, to believing I am a person.
My personhood is an illness I experience as “life” in this “world”. As long as I believe I am a person living a life in this world, I will awaken into it. I know that I am ill, and I seek respite from my illness in the world of my person. But there exists no permanent relief in this place. I must come out of my illness to gain the release I seek.
To escape my illness I must remember who I am; disabuse myself of the notion that I am a person. I must escape. I experience a selfist shift, away from the world of my thirdself, the inner world of my secondself, back to my eternal and immortal firstself. I am not a person in the world; I am the creator of this world.
As I plot and secure my escape, I will slow the velocity of my ascent into personhood, and experience my demigodhood as I skirt the lines between my false personhood and my true godhood.
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