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To the descentist, life is a problem in need of a solution. The problem is that I find myself here, experiencing all manners of pain and suffering. The solution is meaningful change through existential transformation. For me it was prompted by a growing sense of dissatisfaction with life. Not for a shortage of ideas; the… Continue reading Instruction

When I enter a room full of people, all of my behaviors are derived from where and who I am. It follows that where I am informs how I feel. How I feel will inform what I value and want. What if I entered a room full of people without knowing where I am? I… Continue reading What I know

IAGWIS is a literal statement and serves as the foundational tenet of sonsotism. It addresses and resolves the fundamental question, “Who am I?” IAGWIS is the result of a lifetime of mindful exploration, prayer, contemplation, and experience. It is built of the pain, joy, excitement, stress, and conflict of the life that preceded its utterance… Continue reading Implications of iagwis

I am God when I sleep. If I am God when I sleep, who am I when I awaken? Where does that leave my familiar self? …  

One of the most persistent ascentist beliefs is that I have a ‘purpose’. Tools have purposes. Employees have purposes. Components have purposes. They are useful to those who need them. Am I merely a tool for others to use? For a god? Am I only to be useful? …

February 8, 2021 I know that I am God when I sleep. From that, all else can be derived. I know that all my questions will be answered. …

The traditional worldview, which I refer to as ascentism, is founded on four major constraints. Insignificance. I am one of billions in an infinite universe. I was insignificant, deprived of the power to control. Confusion. There are many truths of equal validity. I was confused, deprived of the certainty to know. Disempowerment. The truth is… Continue reading Meaning

I have suffered many long periods of darkness trying to escape the pain at the core of my being. I have sought both spiritual and material relief, but nothing has worked. I have always sensed that something was fundamentally wrong; that there was a truth just beneath the surface of my familiar life. I knew… Continue reading Confusion

Desire is the fundamental mechanism of my life. If I am idle, it is desire that compels me to move, shift, change, act, behave, or aspire. Ascentism is the condition of continuous change and movement in search of something, without ever finding it. Descentism is the rediscovery of my first and last desire, and withdrawal… Continue reading My plan

I have only one story, and it starts before I wake from sleep and ends when I return to sleep. This is the only story I need to know, and every awakening is an opportunity to deepen my understanding of my existence. As I reluctantly awaken here, my very first desire is to remain there… Continue reading My story