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After years of trying to make sense of life, it was learnings from my professional career that actually served a cross-over purpose and gave me the philosophical framework I needed to make progress on a theory of everything. As a software engineer I had been looking for a pattern as a basis for a data structure.… Continue reading The anatomy of a production

MOVED TO GOOGLE DOCS 07.02.2020 In this piece I outline the Existential Framework in terms of its two constituent models in an easy-to-understand format. This work is not intended to give a full account of the subject matter, but rather a condensed summary highlighting key concepts. Sections are regularly updated to include relevant links to additional… Continue reading The existential framework: a summary

In this piece I examine the act of suicide in terms of the Existential Framework. Suicide is a sensitive subject, so please read the Descentist Disclaimer prior to reading this work. In The Existential Creator Model: A System Analysis, I examine my life in terms of the fundamental and recurring pattern called productions. But what exists before I engaged… Continue reading Why some people don’t want to live

I have been searching for answers as long as I can remember. I have notes scrawled on white, 3-ring-bound, college-ruled paper about my life as an 8 year old. At 13 I saved up and bought my first portable tape recorder where I could elaborate on my theories of the universe. Tape recorders evolved into… Continue reading Living my understanding

MOVED TO GOOGLE DOCS 07.02.2020 The Existential Creator Model is an examination of my life using a software engineering method called a “system analysis”. This piece examines all elements of my life in a procedural fashion and will be most appreciated by those with a technical mindset.  I have always admired the taxonomies across various… Continue reading The existential creator model: a system analysis

In this piece I describe myself. The great tragedy of my life is though I can feel and sense it, as I enter my fifth decade, I’ve never been able to articulate what life was or what my purpose here might be. Some idea of it was hidden away in the corners of my mind,… Continue reading I’m lost

I had no solid concept of the nature of life itself, and my beliefs were easily traced to formal education, trendy beliefs, and various other commercial productions which didn’t survive even mild scrutiny. I valued material success and recognition above all else, and financial goals stood-in for a real life purpose. My spirituality was the… Continue reading Dabaism: The false purpose

Someone I was conversing with recently lamented their lack of talent. A lot of people feel this way, even if they don’t express it as explicitly as this person. In a society that places a premium on talent and celebrity, where content celebrating talent is demanded and supplied across every channel, it’s clear that a… Continue reading The dangerous talent show

I have a spiritual narrative now that makes sense. I can start at the beginning and move through it to the end. It flows — I can speak in simple language, but with an increasingly articulate set of secondary content to backup the principles. I recorded myself talking about it when I took M out… Continue reading What I know

1:26am… I just had a major realization. In the past I have often recalled the time I was walking home from high-school one day in Hazel Dell. This voice inside of me said that one day I would know everything about everything at any point in time. I was walking home from Columbia River HS… Continue reading December 15, 2019