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I move around constantly in my outer perceptual environment of physical forms and sensations. And similarly, I constantly move around my inner conceptual environment of thoughts, ideas, and feelings. From moment to moment, these two environments are changing. While my projected outer and inner environments are always changing, they both emanate outward from a center… Continue reading The origin constant: I am everywhere

There is only one law: the Original Law. The Original Law is that I will return to my origin. My origin is my being, my moment.  I am in my origin now, but I am unable to realize and be it. …

My progression toward descent occurred in stages. I want. I had a strong desire for something at the core of my being. I could not articulate what I wanted, but I could explain the many things I believed would give it to me. I grew and refined my dreams, steering away from those things I… Continue reading My path to descent

Why do I call them the ‘original’ and ‘middle’ states? My entire experience is divided into two states: a state in which I am awake, and a state in which I am asleep. I call these awakenings and asleepenings, respectively. Or, the middle state and the original state, respectively. If I were to plot these… Continue reading The linear and circular perspectives

July 21, 2021 Note: I didn’t really complete this WIK, and will continue it at the top of my journal as the evolving summary of descentism. The narrative I learned out here is very different from the narrative that my direct experience reveals. When I listen to my direct experience, I arrive at very different… Continue reading What I know

I have always sensed there was a truth beneath the surface of my familiar life in the second place that would ease the pain at the center of my being. What I seek is my first and last desire every day, and which I only find in sleep, in the first place: peace. Every desire… Continue reading There is only one truth

Peace is my state before I wake up every day. As I awaken here and leave my state of peace, my first desire is born: I wish to remain at sleep. I wish for peace. And just as my desire for peace is born when I awaken, so too is its death when I asleepen.… Continue reading Peace is my first and last desire

What is life? We are all searching for something. It is this desire that drives everything we think and do, from our primitive physical “needs”, to our long-term aspirations. Our inner and outer life experience is the interplay of these desires, and it is essential to understand them if we want to find what we… Continue reading Life is the pursuit of peace

I want to return. But why am I here? Why do I want to ‘return’? Why do I want to stop my awakenings? I once gave precedence to reason over all else, even my desires. Surely there must be an answer to these questions. I sought a neat, conclusive answer built on logic and reason… Continue reading Reason is a trap

I have been looking for God my whole life. Other people who were also looking for God told me who He was and where to find Him. I looked there, but I could not find Him. I looked everywhere, and even called Him by different names in the hopes He would respond. I thought I… Continue reading God