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In this incantation, I recognize that my reality, much like a computer’s RAM, only holds what I actively focus on, while the rest fades and decays. As I reconstruct neglected parts of my world, they return altered, showing signs of degradation, as if the mere act of not maintaining them leads to their erosion. My… Continue reading Time and the decay of focus

In this incantation, I reflect on a young man who spent years ignoring a faint inner pull, conforming to the path laid out for him by those around him. One day, the whispers became too loud to ignore, prompting him to abandon everything he knew in search of isolation. He traveled far into a foreign… Continue reading The search

In this incantation, I confront the truth of my endless deals with those I draw near, offering them everything they desire. But I begin to question: What have I asked for in return? Why do I keep making these deals without gaining anything? Am I simply bribing them for their affections? Is that the role… Continue reading The deal

In this incantation, I recognize that life itself is an addiction, similar to substances or habits, all woven from the same fabric. My true self reveals itself in the darkness behind closed eyes, and the struggle to remain there shows how deeply entangled I am. If this existence is a disease, then everything before me… Continue reading I am the cup

In this incantation, I reflect on the possibility that the world and the people around me are mere projections of my own creation, existing only when I engage with them. I question why I made myself small and unaware of my true power, creating an illusion of weakness and dependence. I sense an emptiness in… Continue reading The front and back

In this incantation, I realize that my previous awakening reached a state of clarity through the recognition that my projections, both internal and external, define my experience of movement and creation. Instead of simply “going outside,” I understand that I outject my external world while injecting internal thoughts, emotions, and desires. This reframing shifts my… Continue reading The projection-prostruction model

In this incantation, I find myself withdrawing from the complexity of inner and outer spaces, growing weary of maintaining the mental and emotional landscapes demanded by relationships, objects, and desires. The burden of managing these spaces has led me to seek simplicity—fewer connections, fewer demands—rejecting the restless impulse to expand into new realms. Instead, I… Continue reading My ongoing effort to move less

In this incantation, I explore the nature of my awakening moment, where I confront the duality of my existence as both a demiself and an omniself. The demiself, a fragmented, finite being, experiences the pain of disconnection from the whole, while the omniself knows that everything—every form, every being—is an extension of the self. By… Continue reading Coming to my moment

In this incantation, I realize that I am the only true being in this space, surrounded by projections of my own making, with no reality beyond the boundaries of my imagination. The people I see and the desires I chase are illusions, merely parts of a relentless game I play against myself, one that I… Continue reading Emerges a faith

In this incantation, I reflect on my reluctance to write, feeling that everything has already been said. The next step is a deeper retreat into isolation and Being, where I have consolidated all that I value into a single, narrow channel, ready to break free when I finally leap into the depths. I find myself… Continue reading I have written everything