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When I finished high school I relished the freedom to design my days however I wanted. It was a new feeling, and a powerful counter to the notion that freedom lie at the end of a long road through university and decades of toil. I resented giving away my best hours every day to someone… Continue reading The reawareness cycle

In the Descentist Framework, truth is not a fact. Instead, it is a state of being I arrive at when I reach the highest degree of clarity about the nature of my existence. When I am not in this state of clarity — which is most of the time — I am in a state… Continue reading The triself model and pronouns

January 29, 2022 Introduction: I have reached a milestone with the discovery and expression of the concept of “my third self”. This replaces and combines many previous concepts, the latest of which I believe is “the inessential”. Now, the entire existential stack, from the very core to the furthest extents follows one consistent nomenclature. I… Continue reading What I know

The idea of a fact is that it is something that is true whether or not I believe it. This idea of a set of phenomena which exist and are true, whether I know about, experience, or believe it, is the backbone of inessential origination because it creates a massive space outside of my direct… Continue reading Facts are decisions

I wake up in a strange room every day. I do not know where I am or why I am here. I only know when I come here I leave a place where I am free and at peace, and arrive in a place where I am constrained and in pain. My constraint is a… Continue reading The strange room and the something

What I now call “origination” is a concept I have wrestled with as long as I can remember. I have characterized it in many ways, but recently I have been able to concisely define it as my beliefs regarding the nature of my existence. It is the foundation for everything I believe, value, want, and… Continue reading Origination

I carried a notebook with me everywhere I went from a young age and wrote down everything that came to mind. My “notes” as I called them, were a collection of ideas, preferences, insights, reflections, and mundane details. At any given time I was fixated on a few “projects” that had grown into larger-than-life creative… Continue reading The theory of everything

Everything I sense, imagine, believe, desire, and experience from the moment I awaken until the moment I asleepen is a distortion resulting from the disorientation of not knowing who, what, or where I am. In this state of disorientation, I attribute truth and reality to that which is neither. I decide that the most true… Continue reading How the distortion works

Desire is the foundational aspect of my existence, and I can demonstrate its nature with the now and back exercise (NBE). The purpose of the NBE is to intentionally move between my two existential selves while observing and reflecting on the changes that happen. As I become attuned to these changes, I experience the actual… Continue reading How desire works

Time is a major obstacle to my reorientation away from ascent and toward descent. It is a persistent element of the distortion and the dominant factor in the pain of my illness. In ascending, time is a governing force; I believe it is real, and have built my existential model around it. I know that… Continue reading Escaping time