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Who am I? I am existence. I am everything.  While I conceptually accept that I am existence, I believe and thus behave as if there are things which are not me. This disparity between who I am and who I believe I am is the origin of the illness I experience as awakenings. To heal,… Continue reading The selfist model

The Bible supposedly reveals the nature of God and his character, expressing his message to the people. I can read the Bible and receive guidance and wisdom of generations before me to confront and overcome any challenge that I face. The notion of a set of characters and events that I can reflect on to… Continue reading My life is my bible

Thirdself emanation is everything that appears to happen “outside of” my familiar physical self. It is the people, places, and things in my environment. It is the chair I am sitting in right now, and the computer I am looking at and typing on. It is the mountains in the horizon, and everything I can… Continue reading Thirdself emanation

For so long I have ignored the vast, endless theater in which I sit alone, watching the stage-play in front of me. But I have only to close my eyes to see it stretching outward in all directions. What I have thought, and actively think is me, is just a small point of awareness sitting… Continue reading I am the marionettist

I started this incantation but have not finished it completely. I lost my way on it and will search for a better way to explain it. I can see the distortion by comparing the following two statements and then reflecting on their actual differences in light of how I perceive their differences. I can imagine… Continue reading Imaginistic distortion, unfinished…

I am in triself as I write this. While secondself thoughts of people, places, and events vie for my attention and awareness, in triself I remain centered in my moment. I experience a constant pressure around the crown of my head, and I both conceive and perceive that my experience divides into three layers. My… Continue reading Describing experiential triself

My thirdself ideologies are all the philosophies, religions, and perspectives that originate “outside of me” within my secondself imagination. They come to me first as information I can only imagine, but I cannot directly experience without additional second- and- thirdself movement. This includes all beliefs, facts, and pieces of information I have acquired and assembled… Continue reading How selfism relates to thirdself ideologies

In my awakening I know that something is wrong, but I do not know what it is. By “wrong”, I mean that I have misunderstood something important, and mischaracterized the nature of my being. I know at some deep level that who I think I am, and who I actually am are two different things.… Continue reading Authority in triself

Although I could not clearly explain why, I always rejected philosophies that originated “outside of me”. The Christian religion was the first ideology I rejected. I found it silly and impractical, and would spend years ridiculing the idea of an imagined deity I must obey, and who last exposed himself thousands of years ago in… Continue reading Repossession of authority

When I think and speak in uniself, I reinforce the model that I am an object moving through space and time in a linear fashion. I think and speak of what I did in the past, and what I will do in the future. I visualize my existence as a constellation of events that have… Continue reading My moment