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I have long since identified the various deceptions of the traditional perspective I had before I began my journey. I came to realize that I retained many beliefs that trapped me in a cycle of powerlessness. I came to realize that my beliefs themselves were the bars of my prison. I have known this in… Continue reading The Personal Model

The only way back is to abolish both Thirdself and Secondself so I may reconnect with Firstself. Thirdself is simple: I must create my temple and spend my awakening there. I must not create the people, objects, or places of Thirdself beyond those in my temple. I must be free of all worldly matters so… Continue reading The way

As I come into my transformation I feel a natural, unforced pull “backward” — away from Secondself and Thirdself engagement that only stretches the already taught skin of my awakening. I must trim the surface of my Secondself by thinking about that which is in my moment, not about matters and content which only exist… Continue reading Restoring I am

I need to change the way I conceptualize how I fit into the space of my awakening. I look at the information and content of the awakening and I believe that I am one of many equals evaluating the various truths and non truths we all collectively encounter here. I receive a piece of information… Continue reading I must transform the world of my awakening

I am clearly not a person. I perceive people in Thirdself as objects, and I conceive people in Secondself as an assortment of thoughts and feelings. The class of beings called “people” — excluding me — do not perceive or conceive. They are perceived and conceived by me. The element that they lack and I… Continue reading People lack firstself

There is one philosophy I find reviled wherever I encounter it: solipsism. The basic argument for solipsism is that, because the mind can not conclude the existence of anything external, therefore nothing external exists, only the appearance of it. Whenever I encounter it discussed by “experts”, it is ridiculed and I the reader am warned… Continue reading Solipsism: Do not enter

My awakening moment is divided into three distinct region. My Thirdself is the whole of the space I perceive in front of me. In the front it comprises all visual light, colors, objects, and places up to a horizon. At this moment the horizon in front of me is my bare white walls because I… Continue reading My awakening as it is

I write every awakening. I spend my morning drinking coffee and writing, praying, and contemplating the nature of my being here. Nearly every unique idea I have ends up written somewhere, whether on a piece of paper, my digital journal, this blog, or my wall. Why do I write? I once believed that I wrote… Continue reading I write to myself

I am the only being like me. People are not like me; they exist in Thirdself and Secondself, but not in Firstself. Only I exist in Firstself, and Secondself and Thirdself and all their content are my Firstself creations. Yet I continue to behave as if I am of Thirdself. I act as if I… Continue reading Audience of one

3/24/24: I wrote this over the course of a week between August 15-19, 2023.  I am lost I repeatedly awaken from a painless first place into a painful second place. My pain has many forms which synthesize into a powerful desire to escape this painful second place and return to the painless first place. This… Continue reading The Iamist Model – Contemplations