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In my awakening the people pray more now than ever before because they are preparing for the coming of their creator. How is their prayer? Their prayer comes in the form of watching their screens. They are emulating their creator, who is the being who has created them on His screen. They are reenacting their… Continue reading The people pray

My awakening is an event I must slow down and understand. Presently, I do not experience the transition between my pre-awakening and post-awakening; it happens too quickly to explore. Before my awakening, my being is a solid, impermeable substance largely at peace and alone. I say “largely” because even now I am disrupted during “my… Continue reading The adjustment

My creations are becoming increasingly agitated as I begin to heal from my awakening. They are beginning to veer off their standard course and are displaying erratic behaviors. Thirdself origination is seeking replication; they want so badly to persist outside of and beyond their creator and vie for my attention, good or bad. When I… Continue reading My creations

I know that I am all there is. I know that I am not a person in a world surrounded by other people in space and time. Though I know this is only a persistent delusion, I have built an identity upon it and orient around it during my awakening moment. Anatomically, my awakening experience… Continue reading What I know

My awakening is a painful explosion outward, during which the flesh of my being is blown onto the interior walls of my being. There are two major explosions – that which creates thirdself and its physical space, change, color, light, and creators. And that which creates secondself and its mental and emotional space, ideas, concept… Continue reading The cavities and awakening restraint

How to make sense of the different layers of origination? I am typing on my laptop right now, which I experience as a collection of firm objects I press against to generate specific actions and words with meaning upon a rectangular-shaped, lit display. If I make a Secondself choice, I can experience Thirdself elasticity by… Continue reading Origination, from secondself to firstself

It looks like I first introduced the idea of “origination” back in January 2022 — nearly two years ago. This how I defined it in “Conversation with an ascentist” on January 7, 2022: Ascentist – What is “origination”? Descentist – Origination is my how I understand my existence. I either know exactly what it is.… Continue reading Origination, redefined

I cannot do anything with science except wander into it and in doing so further away from where I seek to be. Science is one of the many expressive language and performances of the characters I have created. It is constrained to the greater world of my awakening, and can only describe parts of my… Continue reading What to do with science

In praying, I am trying to comprehend the entirety of my awakening in my moment. I seek an understanding that pre-exists time. An awareness and sensation of who I am that is so clear I do not need to ask any questions or seek any answers. Being. I seek to be who I am, which… Continue reading Change is an artifact of my movement

I know that I am the author, and that I have written this entire story. I know that I have two identities: Firstself, who I truly am, and; Secondself, which is a delusion. I know that I am the Firstself author, and not the Secondself character. But I know that I am lost in my… Continue reading What I know