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In this incantation I continue my effort at simplifying fundamental selfist concepts. Otherness is the subsurface. I can best summarize my illness as the delusional belief that I am one person among many people, in one place among many places, in one time among many times, with one experience among many experiences.  My awakening divides… Continue reading Otherness is the subsurface

In this incantation I explore how I actively behave toward the characters of my awakening, and how I should change that in order to perform in my awakening more consistently with the truth of my existence. My awakening is the delusional belief that I am one person among many people, in one place among many… Continue reading How I should treat people

In this incantation I describe the enormous relief that arises when I can overcome the delusion that I have a past full of painful behaviors, events, and experiences. By accepting the obvious truth that there is only this moment then I can escape the bonds of the past I impose upon myself. I am who… Continue reading Freedom from my past

In this incantation I examine my false belief that I am a person in detail, focusing on the unique qualities I possess that do not exist in the fleshy characters I encounter in my awakening. I do not directly dive into this point, but instead I arrive after first exploring the true nature of my… Continue reading How I know I am not a person

In this incantation I examine the surface and subsurface of my awakening. I have found minimal use for these words since I started using them, but recently I have realized that they perfectly encapsulate my awakening experience and can be used to better explain the anatomy of my moment. My quest to explain my moment… Continue reading The subsurface

In this incantation I follow-up on an event from my adolescent years when I had a vision that I would one day “know everything about everything”. I wrote about this in June 2021, about two and a half years ago here, but want to examine the topic with all my new learnings. This incantation is… Continue reading Omniscience: I will know everything about everything

In this incantation I try to describe a fleeting sensation I once described to my aunt, of not wanting to be around people because it hurt. I tried to explain that I wanted my people “in me”, and not “outside of me”. From peace and infinite, seamless unity, I fragment into all the textured content… Continue reading The pain of people and the need to demanifest them

In this incantation I seek to further solidify my shift away from personal language and toward divine language.  As I practice using divine in place of personal language, I feel my secondself reeling. It is a counter-disorientation; a haloing. In the divine language there is no mental construct of a larger physical space that I… Continue reading Divine being

In this incantation I introduce and refine the concept of two languages: the personal and the divine. My goal is to shift away from the personal language of conjuration and toward the divine language and transformation. Yesterday I referenced the “backwards language” in an incantation. The language of the person. The language of the person… Continue reading The personal language and conjuration

In this incantation, I reflect on my journey to ascend my Throne, where I will fully embody myself as the Creator. From this position, I see creation as entertainment and harmony, recognizing all relationships as divine and purposeful. My current struggles and thrashings serve to refine my path, despite the turmoil they cause in my… Continue reading My ascension