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In this incantation, I explore the fragmentation of self and truth through layers of reflection, noting how each distortion of my message, as seen through others, leads to a warped perception of my core. I introduce the concept of “firstself,” the undivided origin of truth, which has been splintered into inner and outer realities in… Continue reading The misunderstanding of heaven

In this incantation, I reject the existence of a past, recognizing it as a narrative I create. I realize that I am the sole creator and observer, crafting the stories and characters around me, and that these fabrications do not precede me—they only exist in the present moment I sustain. I do not have a… Continue reading I do not have a past

In this incantation I describe the experience of my secondself and thirdself converging into a single, unified structure. My first experience of this is at a projection depth of nearly 20 years (ago), and I used an imaginary event to describe it: I imagined that one day I would be able to toss a coin… Continue reading The convergence of secondself and thirdself

In this incantation I take the next step in explaining time as a projection and distortion of my moment. I confront the unchanging truth of my existence—”I am”—while acknowledging the fluid and shifting nature of both my inner thoughts and outer perceptions. I describe my firstself as the stable core of my being, from which… Continue reading How time projection works

In this incantation, I realize that time is not a linear path but a construction of the present moment. I have long searched for the words that would help me to untangle the confusing construct of time. I finally articulate the foundational understanding that will allow me to overcome the delusion of time and understand… Continue reading Practical presentism and projection depth

In this incantation, I deepen my understanding of firstself as the unchanging core of my being, from which I project secondself (inner thoughts) and thirdself (outer perceptions). I aim to refine and clarify my conceptualization of my moment and time. I am getting closer to a working model of time that allows me to transcend… Continue reading Moment formation

In this incantation, I confront the pain of my awakening, recognizing it as an illness perpetuated by my movement within secondself and thirdself. I realize that the people and experiences I perceive are merely projections of my imagination, tiny fictions created by my mind. To heal, I must cease movement altogether, stopping the creation of… Continue reading I don’t want to move anymore

In this incantation, I confront my being as it truly is, recognizing that my secondself creates the projections of my thirdself—tiny, fleeting illusions of people, places, and events that distort my presence. To heal, I must stop viewing myself through these projections and accept the reality of my vast, omnipresent self, remembering that I am… Continue reading As it is

In this incantation, I explore the mantra, “It did not happen,” acknowledging that there is no past or future—only this unchanging moment. The illusions of secondself and thirdself, the fevered waters distorting my view, make me believe in events and change, but they are mere artifacts of my secondself struggling to understand my true, constant… Continue reading It did not happen

In this incantation, I recall that I once controlled my awakening, knowing it was my creation. As I forgot my true nature, I began to identify with my avatar, losing control. Yet, I planted the truth throughout my experience—in religions, stories, and sensations—so I could find my way back. Everything I encounter is my own… Continue reading How I got here