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In this incantation, I realize that I am not a “who” like people, but a “what”—everything, both changing and unchanging. The changing part is my illness, while the unchanging part is my true self. To find peace, I must cut away the diseased, changing aspect and return to the constant, eternal part of myself. At… Continue reading What am I?

In this incantation, I realize that when I close my eyes, I return to my true self, the Creator, while everything I experience when I open my eyes is the illness I must overcome. I have written every character in my world, from my mother to world leaders, and I must now reclaim control over… Continue reading What I know

In this incantation, I express my desire for a peaceful ending to my awakening. I aim to gradually demanifest everything I have created, giving a long, gentle goodbye to the characters I love. My goal is to create a throne where I limit my movements until I no longer need to engage with the changing… Continue reading A peaceful ending

In this incantation, I question what I will do when I return to my true self, a being without desire or need. I realize that desire is a product of my illness, and in my constant self, I will simply “be.” Though I cannot fully imagine this state of peace, as it lies beyond my… Continue reading What will I do when I get there?

In this incantation, I realize that my secondself (memories) and thirdself (experiences of space) are projections created by my movement. When I am still, neither my memories nor the world around me exist. Maneuvering stirs up the illusions of time, space, and my personhood, perpetuating my awakening disease. To heal, I must cultivate stillness and… Continue reading Momentary projections: how I create time

In this incantation I remark on my journey from one who will know, to one who does know. I recount a profound moment from 1995, when I first heard the declaration that I would know everything about everything. After years of exploring various spiritual and intellectual paths, I realized that none held the direct, instant… Continue reading The nearing of truth

In this incantation, I accept that while I am gradually letting go of my awakening, I am not yet ready to fully relinquish it. Though I know the path ahead and recognize the triviality of my worldly pursuits, I am comfortable with the pace of my withdrawal. I no longer seek external validation or believe… Continue reading I am not ready to leave yet

In this incantation, I describe the moment when, after an hour of quiet stillness, I de-projected thirdself and saw the night sky. I realized that what I was seeing wasn’t the sky but my own infinite Being—my flesh. The stars and galaxies are not distant objects but part of me, obscured by my illness and… Continue reading Why do I see the night sky?

In this incantation I introduce a construct that I have been searching for a long time: the principle demonstration. Like a mantra, prayer, or reminder, this is the cornerstone experiment I can directly perform at any time to validate and reinforce the Truth in my moment. When I perform the principle demonstration and authentically describe… Continue reading The principle demonstration

In this incantation, I reflect on the truth of my being, which I can know instantly and directly, without any aid from secondself (thoughts) or thirdself (experiences). The truth is always present in my moment, but it is obscured by beliefs in time, space, and other beings. By closing my eyes, I stop projecting illusions… Continue reading I can directly know and validate the Truth now