Author: sonsot

April 28, 2021 The last WIK was about 6 weeks ago on March 15. There is only one story: I am trapped in a series of awakenings in the asleepening. My only purpose is to end the awakenings and return to the asleepening. The path emerges as I reorient to the Source Perspective by confronting… Continue reading What I know

Why am I here? Why does it hurt? What is my purpose? What is my calling? What is my reason for being? Why? I have asked ‘why’ my entire life. I have read books and listened to people, but ultimately I decided that no one actually knows the answer to any of these questions. When… Continue reading The desire for reason

I don’t remember exactly when I first asked myself this question, but I know it has been with me a long time. If I could have everything I wanted, even if it isn’t what I want now, would I take it? At first, it seemed easy enough to answer: of course. But it is an… Continue reading Self-awareness: The first question

I once accepted that I was a speck of dust in universe that pre-existed my arrival, and would exist long after I was gone. I imagined a past that extended backward, and a future that extended infinitely forward. I imagined that I was one of billions of individuals inhabiting this rock orbiting a star, within… Continue reading I am my own god, my own satan, my own jesus

I have always desired something so completely it drove my every movement. I sensed it was just beneath the surface of my familiar life; that I could reach out and touch it if I could see it. Though it was hidden from view, I somehow knew it was inevitable. In my earliest years ‘it’ was… Continue reading My pain

I was 16 when I had a revelation: I will know everything about everything. I rushed home to write that down and imagine what it meant.  In my adolescent mind, “knowing everything about everything” offered a fascinating prospect. But there was a problem: I was just one unremarkable person out of billions. How could I possibly… Continue reading I know everything

I come here because I have forgotten who I am. That forgetfulness manifests as this cycle of awakenings. God is my first desire as I wake, and my last desire before I sleep. All other desires formed by my familiar self are borne of ignorance of my true desire. There are two movements at play… Continue reading My Life

One of the primary symptoms of depression according to the medical authorities is the “loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed”. Of course, this line of reasoning is based on the idea that a loss of interest is a medical condition requiring psychiatric and even chemical treatment. But I need not turn to… Continue reading Depression