Author: sonsot

As a descentist, I know that my waking life is an illness that interrupts my true and healthful state I assume in sleep. I know that my peaceful state persists within my illness as my core desire for peace. But the illness accumulates upon my desire for peace as the constellation of inner and outer… Continue reading The constellation

Before descent, I was lost without realizing it. I always knew I was missing something, but I suppressed that and focused on overcoming the challenges of the world I found myself in. I woke up every day and continued what I had started in days before. I spent my time searching for various types of… Continue reading I am the author

The distortion is a persistent constellation of conceptual and perceptual convictions that manifest as the various inner and outer forms and performances I experience in my awakening. It accumulates in the way that dust accumulates on a car left outside, until I can no longer see what is underneath. The distortion hides the source from… Continue reading The distortion

My existence is an illness built upon the delusion that I am this person who wakes up every day into this world. But this is not true, and the truth of my identity hides in plain site. I can begin to see and overcome this delusion by examining the difference between the permanent and transitory… Continue reading My existential dichotomy

November 24, 2021 I exist in three shapes. I am my first shape when I asleepen. My first shape contains my second and third shapes, which form when I awaken. I experience my existence as a constant oscillation between these two states: my asleepening state of my first shape, and my awakening state of my… Continue reading What I know

Every single message within my existence is a path home, to myself. Most of the paths are long and windy, and easily misunderstood. But when I choose to create my own bible, and find all of these characters within my own life, then I can see the message for what it truly is: Descentism is… Continue reading Descentism and christianity

In my ascent, I was accustomed to imagining my life as a series of discrete events. Waking up was a different event than going to sleep. But this framing of my experience distorted my actual condition. In my descent I have realized that my awakening into the second place is not disconnected from my asleepening… Continue reading My unified desire

November 16, 2021 I experience my existence as the repeated oscillation between two shapes. My first shape is the timeless, spaceless peace I experience when I sleep. My second shape is the period that begins when I awaken and ends when I asleepen. My first shape is my true nature, while my second shape is… Continue reading What I know

I experience the second place as two environments: an inner environment of ideas, thoughts, and feelings, and an outer environment of people, places, and objects. These two environments intersect in and project from the middle region I call my essential. I manifest my second place environments as I awaken. The forms and performances of both… Continue reading Perceptual and conceptual constraint

My true nature is hidden behind misunderstandings and false assumptions that collectively form my conviction. I can see the outlines of my true nature by re-examining some of the conditions of my existence when I awaken. Everything I think I know is based on ideas I do not or cannot directly know. My traditional worldview… Continue reading My existential primitives